☆~[t][i][n][g][t][i][n][g]~☆

2011-02-22T12:50:00.003+08:00

have you ever had the feeling of 'I don't know who to talk to ' ? Well,I always have this kind of feeling...Maybe can't find the right person to talk to? And this time it's overwhelming me. Maybe I'm too stubborn over certain things, and can't take it easy...I know that it's so wrong to feel so low at this period of time...but I just can't help it.

I think as time pass,everything change
and no one can escape from it...

2011-01-30T20:29:00.005+08:00

纯粹在发泄
————————————
雨下个不停虽让对我来说是没什么啦
因为我一直都在家
可是就是因为这场stupid rain弄到他爽约
天啊~

我想了解我的人因该知道

我！是个最讨厌言而无信的人
只要是你说话不算话那你就不必再解释什么了
因为我完全不可能！不可能！听清楚了！
不可能会听你所说的理由

还有！我！最讨厌没有时间观念的人
你和我约几点我会提早或准时出现
可是如果你一而再再而三的迟到
那我以后也不可能会准时到

我知道有些人认为那很幼稚
可是如果你早到又怎样？
约你的人呢？
你还不是在那里浪费时间
我最讨厌浪费我时间的人

让我最最最受不了的不是什么
是整天威胁我！
如果你整天问我“你心里是要这样了是不是”或者“你以后不要找我帮忙”
我只会回你一句“是你到底想怎样？”或“你以为你是谁？”
这几句话不是在表示他们在我心里一点地位都没有
而是你对我这样你认为我需要Bootlick 你啊？

对我来说迟到，信口开河和威胁我的人
就像是在你面前打翻你的菜还瞪你的混蛋一样让我恼羞成怒

还有！有时我真的很不能理解
为什么有些人可以这么的...（你知道啦~）

做一个朋友，说真的我觉得我是用心在跟你交朋友的
如果你不是抱着‘可能他有点利用价值’的心态跟我交朋友
我是不可能会对你见死不救好处不和你分享

如果你发现我这么对你
请你自己问下你自己自己到底做错了什么

其实有时我不是故意想要气任何人
每个人都有自尊心
你有我当然也有
当你把我的自尊心扔在地上踩
你认为我还能忍气吞声的吗？

2011-01-23T19:38:00.003+08:00

我突然发现

过于自信的人整天想着有多少异性败倒在她的石榴裙下。
不知道有多少人在背后嘲笑她的“自以为是”。

不要等到失去了才去珍惜
不要等到没机会了才努力

不要忘了，你选择别人，别人也可以不选择你
除了你，他们还有别的选择，就像你

没有人是非要和谁不可
也没有人非要爱谁不可

2011-01-20T22:11:00.004+08:00

最近实在是忙得有点忘记自己想干嘛了~
虽然我的努力可能不被受肯定
可是，我是不会被别人的三言两语给影响的

可能身边的人觉得奇怪吧？
平时胆小怕事的我到哪里去了？
胸无大志的我怎么了？
自卑，内向的自己又到哪了？

不过，别人不是常说“change for the best”吗？
我也想改变
不需要任何人认可
只要自己心里明白自己努力过就行了

我今年已经21岁了，说到来已经是个成年人了
我必须为自己的未来负责

如果我一直把自己排在最后
我是永远都不会快乐的

如果我只会牺牲自己，
你认为我以后会有出息吗？

我。。。一定要对自己负责

2010-12-14T20:37:00.002+08:00

如果你发现你现在最爱的人用同样的方式来认识或追求其他女生怎么办？

当然是你们在一起之前。。。

给未来的自己

2010-12-02T22:07:00.007+08:00

未来的我,

我希望未来的我能够坚强，永不放弃。也不要忘了，停下脚步，眺望远处的景色以及珍惜现在。时间不可能停留，也不可能回转。所以不要总是回头看着过去的倒影，一定要记得往前看。很多事情不是自己做不到，而是自己是否尽心尽力的在做。还记得哥哥说过“与其花时间在发白日梦，妄想一些不可能会发生的事情。倒不如把那些时间和精力放在行动。不要总是想下一步该怎么走或规划每天的行程，你想到什么就做什么，否则到头来，你什么也没做到”

还有，我要提醒未来的自己：

可能有一天，我的朋友背叛我。不要难过，因为“朋友”总是来得匆匆去的匆匆，只有用心来交朋友的人才会一直陪伴在我身边。

可能有一天，我最爱的人在我背后作出对不起我的事。不要报复，因为最好的报复不是伤害他，而是让自己过的更好。不要认为自虐会换来他的同情/让他感到内疚。既然他选择了放弃我，那就代表他已经不爱我，他只会觉得我很愚蠢，甚至还提高的他的自我价值。

可能有一天，我拥有的一切都失去了。不要失落，是我的就是我的，不是我的终究会失去。珍惜我还仅有的幸福就行了。

可能有一天，我被否定了。不要自卑，因为我能够到今天这个成就已经很了不起了。虽然不是最出色的，可是我也不是最差的。如果就因为这样失去自信，那么以前的努力不是白费了吗？

可能有一天，我遇到了挫折。不要逃避，因为逃避是改变不了什么。它就像一个人，我越害怕它，它对我的影响就越大。勇敢的面对才是最英明的选择。

可能有一天，我被欺负了。不要害怕，因为我越是退缩他们越是爱欺负我。拿起斗志，和他一较高下，当然不是使用暴力，而是努力的做好自己的工作，爬的比他们高。没有一个人希望自己的敌人比自己过得好。

可能有一天，我受了委屈。不要掉泪，因为那就是他们想看到的结果。你要充实自己，努力的做好自己的本分，让他们知道，他们只不过是个微不足道的小人。与其和这些人计较还不如花这些力气在别的事情。

人生就是有那么多的起伏，地球不会因为自己而停止转动。幸福其实也很简单，只要你凡事不要想得那么极端，那么就会发现，幸福离自己不远。没有一个人的梦想是一夜之间就能成就的，是靠自己争取的，你不去争取，别人也会去争取。“好人”不代表要把别人放第一，自己放最后。只要你不去伤害别人，那么你就是个好人。

现在的自己

玩笑

2010-11-07T14:44:00.002+08:00

还记得曾经的暧昧吗？

还是你们也拥有过这样的感觉？

为什么在暧昧期间的两人

总是爱用玩笑来“表白”

或许对方也同样有类似的感觉

可是却不敢相信，因为害怕你的“告白”

只是个玩笑。。。

如果就这样变成了熟悉的陌生人。。。

有一天。。。

你们又在重逢了

明明看到了

却无视

擦肩而过

她停下了脚步，看了他一眼

可是他却没回头

转过头，含着泪水走了

等到他回头的时候，她的身影已消失在人群中

。
。
。
。
。

不要害怕~

要勇于追求自己的幸福

等到暧昧“成熟”了

你们之间的缘分就越离越远了

因为我勇于踏进一步，

所以我不后悔

在暧昧里兜了一个大圈

我才找到我的挚爱...

转贴：感谢小月月这样一个极品的朋友给我带来了这样一个悲情的国庆，深度八做留恋

2010-10-13T21:21:00.008+08:00

前几天，得知这个人。
听说是现在网络上发烧发热的人物
这故事是从中国网（天涯）里流传出来的
写那篇帖子的是一位网名叫蓉荣的女生

============以下是从天涯网copy过来的(点击到原贴)==================

作者：蓉荣发表日期：2010-10-5 11:45:00

为了帖子的存在和保护网友隐私，请勿人肉相关人员的个人信息，违者删帖封ID，谢谢大家

首先，祝大家国庆节快乐！虽然我国庆节过的非常悲剧。
　　
　　这样一个美妙的假期，因为一个极品的朋友，我度过了难忘的两天一夜。
　　
　　下面，我要慢慢八，绝对不是虚构，绝对不是夸张，绝对不是编故事。
　　
　　我不八出来我都快憋的吐血身亡了。但是我不知道我的文笔能不能描述出那个极品一二，我承认，怎么描述，你们也想象不到当时场面的震撼。
　　
　　好，我喝口水来八。

　先交代下此极品的背景
　　
　　性别：女。以下称她为小月月。额，她喜欢别人这么叫她。
　　
　　身高，跟酵母差不多，150多点
　　
　　体重，目测140斤，实际据她自己说是160斤。
　　
　　与LZ关系：高中同学，有着共同的青春回忆。
　　
　　LZ，目前在上海打工。
　　
　　故事发生背景，小月月要带她的刚认识的男友来上海看世博。她妈妈跟我妈妈交代了下，希望我去招待。
　　
　　老娘电话里热泪盈眶的跟我说，丫头，帮忙招待下吧，带他们去玩好了，小月月的妈妈原来跟LZ妈妈是关系很好的朋友。
　　
　　好，电话里，我接下了这个艰巨的任务，话说当时是10月1日。我放假7天。

　小月月也跟我通了电话，语气很礼貌，很客气，感觉像个成熟的大人了，我心里还有点激动，毕竟老家来人，我还是很兴奋的。一个人孤独的在上海混着，来一两个家乡人是很让人期待的。
　　
　　10月2日，小月月电话通知我，3号中午到上海。让我帮忙订旅馆，但是给了我以下几个条件，150元以下，最好是3星，要有免费的早点，最好离世博会近。
　　
　　我心里很犹豫，世博期间，而且是国庆节，临时定旅馆已经很难，又要3星，要150元以下，根本是不可能完成的任务啊！
　　
　　我当时就说，你们要不在我租的地方住一下吧。LZ一个人租的2房，你们来也够住的。
　　
　　小月月电话里用很嗲很嗲的声音说，不要啦，人家带男朋友来，晚上声音。。。HOHO.。。HOHO。。。可能。。。。HOHO...HOHO.。。会大的啦啦。。。。
　　
　　我写上面那段的时候，还能感觉到浑身鸡皮疙瘩的感觉。
　　
　　我只能说，帮她想办法吧。

挂了电话，我开始头疼，折腾了好久，只能订在离莘庄地铁站有一段距离的旅馆，2星，有免费早餐，价格188，可能超过了小月月的标准，但是我已经没办法顶到更好的了。
　　
　　说实话，如果是我，我会觉得很满意。
　　
　　打了个电话给小月月，客观的跟她说了下旅馆情况，告诉她，来看了不喜欢再说，也没办法订到别的了，她语气觉得还可以。于是旅馆就这么定了。
　　
　　第二天，我早早的去了火车站接她，还跟她说的很清楚，我在门口等。
　　
　　结果，10点30火车到，我他娘的等到11点10分没接到人，期间电话不接，短信不回。我以为出了什么大事。吓的不行。
　　
　　好在11点15分，她给我打了个电话，懒洋洋的声音问我在什么地方，我说，我在出站口啊，我等你在啊。
　　
　　小月月用一种酵母嗷嗷的声音慢悠悠的说，哎呀，我没看到你呀，哦呵呵呵呵呵呵，我跟我家老公打车去旅馆了哦。。。我知道旅馆在哪。
　　
　　我拿着电话站在出站口，人来人往，我有一种晴天霹雳的感觉。。。
　　
　　好吧，我忍。。我打车往莘庄赶。

　12点20多分，我赶到了旅馆。
　　
　　同志们，因为这2天一夜过的刻骨铭心，所以，我连具体的时间都能倒背如流，因为，太刻骨了。
　　
　　我赶到了旅馆后，果然看到一男一女在等我。
　　
　　怎么说呢，小月月高中的时候可以说是非常圆，现在是很圆，没怎么变，就是脸上疙瘩变多了。
　　
　　小月月身边的男的还真的不错，称他为W吧，W看起来很斯文，干净的男生，但是很沉默。
　　
　　小月月用一种怨怼的眼光看着我说：讨厌讨厌讨厌，让人家等那么久，我发誓，发誓从现在开始恨你了啦了啦了啦。。。。论家脚的起泡了啦。。。
　　
　　我。。。。我内心已经有几把刀刺了进去的感觉，吞了口气说，我刚从火车站赶过来，有什么话进房间再说吧。。。
　　
　　于是，在前台登记，期间，小月月看到旅馆的大标志上有好几个星星图像，她激动的说，呦！是五星呢！不错啊，真满意。。。。
　　
　　我的眼光淡定的看向旅馆的招牌，上面是2星，多出来的星星，只是点缀，是点缀。。。

　前台登记的时候，小姐问我要身份证，说来客都要，我掏身份证。。
　　
　　小月月激动：哎呀！她要什么身份证啊！哎呀！你们旅馆认为我们一男两女过夜吗？哎呀哎呀！巴拉巴拉。。。。
　　
　　我充耳不闻，淡定把身份证给小姐，前台小姐刷我的身份证，一时没刷出来，再继续试。
　　
　　小月月更激动：哎呀！她是不是通缉犯啊！身份证怎么没刷出来啊！哎呀！你什么时候被通缉了啊！你晚上不要跟我睡啊，我怕怕怕。。。巴拉巴拉。。。。
　　
　　前台皱眉，然后刷好了卡给早餐券。
　　
　　小月月非常激动：为什么只有2份早餐券！我们不够吃的不够的！什么自助随便吃？什么是自助？自助吃能吃饱吗？巴拉巴拉。。。
　　
　　前台MM好耐心，解释了一遍，说自助可以随便吃，想吃多少吃多少。
　　
　　小月月满意的笑了，圆圆的脸因为激动，红了起来。
　　
　　我们准备上电梯，她以迅雷不及掩耳盗铃之势把前台放糖果的盘子拿起来，打开自己的背包，雄赳赳气昂昂的把所有的糖果倒了进去。。。然后把盘子随手一丢，嘴巴咕噜了一下，五星酒店，连个帮忙拉行李的都没有。。。。。
　　
　　我，与小W，沉默的尾随入电梯。

　在电梯里，小月月抱怨，上海真热，汗一直流，然后用手锤她老公小W，说为什么这么热，为什么为什么为什么。。。。
　　
　　我当时的脑海中，浮现出咆哮马的身影。。。。
　　
　　我仔细打量了下小月月的穿着。
　　
　　毛衣！！！？？？？
　　
　　神马！！真的是毛衣！！！
　　
　　是的，电梯里离的近，我仔细的看了好半天，是那种冬天穿的厚毛衣，长款，大领子，将她裹的像一个球一样。
　　
　　下面是一条牛仔裤，但是，胯裆那里是破的，因为太胖，估计两个大腿丫硬是把牛仔裤磨破了，她一抬腿踹她老公小W的时候，我看到了紫色的内裤。。。。
　　
　　再下面就是一双绝对有15CM的大红色鲜红的高跟鞋！
　　
　　整体感觉像一个大球立在圆规上。。。。
　　
　　我为什么要描述她的穿着呢，因为，第一惊天雷，跟她的穿着有着千丝万缕的联系。。。

　到了房间，看到椅子，我赶紧坐了下来，给她妈妈发个信息，安全接到了。
　　
　　她老公小W是个安静的人，沉默的把行李规制好。
　　
　　而我们的小月月在干什么呢？
　　
　　当时的情景，我现在想起来还在抖。。。。
　　
　　我喘口气。。。
　　
　　她。。。先是大叫，为什么没空调，然后，到处找套套，发现酒店没有配备套套以后她激动的骂，哎呀哎呀！五星的连套套都没有！！！！！
　　
　　我当时心脏都开始疼了，要是我有蛋，我就蛋疼！
　　
　　但是我没有，所以我心疼。。。。
　　
　　因为，小月月干了一件让我崩溃的事。。。
　　
　　她，脱衣服了！！！！！！
　　
　　是的！她脱了！她脱了！她真的脱了！！！！！
　　
　　房间里，有我，有小W。。。。她跟我几年未见，她跟小W才认识几天。。。
　　
　　但是她脱了！她脱了！她真的脱了！！！！！！！！！！！
　　
　　小W跟我，当时目瞪口呆！
　　
　　因为，在她脱下厚重的毛衣后，我们惊悚的发现，里面神马都没有！！！
　　
　　真的没有！真的没有！
　　
　　我没有看到胸罩！
　　
　　只看到两只硕大的球拖在肚子上。。。。。
　　
　　然后，我跟小W，估计当时被雷的大脑短路了。。。
　　
　　就看她一件一件一件全部脱光。。。包括。。。。内裤。。。。
　　
　　让我觉得神奇的是，她可以脱了牛仔裤，但是高跟鞋是穿着的！！！

　　说实话，当时我的脑子跟过电一样，反复出现。。四院。。。110.。。120.。。这种字眼。。。。
　　
　　小W当时赶紧走到我身边的椅子上坐了下来。我们两个尴尬的不知道说什么。。。因为，她开始展示了。。。
　　
　　是的，开始展示了。。。
　　
　　首先，我跟大家描述下旅馆房间布置，
　　
　　床的对面是电视机，右边是一个茶几喝两把椅子。
　　
　　我和小W坐在椅子上目瞪口呆。
　　
　　小月月脱光了剩一个高跟鞋。混身赘肉，然后抬手解开扎起的头发！
　　
　　神马！腋毛！腋毛！！！！是的，浓密的腋毛！！！！
　　
　　配合下面浓密的那个毛！
　　
　　我赶紧拿下我的眼镜开始找纸巾擦。。。。
　　
　　我重复一遍，我要是有蛋，我就蛋疼。。。
　　
　　但是我没有，我只能心疼。。胃疼。。。。
　　
　　我赶紧说，小月月，把衣服穿了，我们走吧，都一点多了，下午去城隍庙啊！
　　
　　小W沉默中。。。
　　
　　小月月完全无视我，盯着小W一步一步的勾魂的脚步走了过来。
　　
　　我心里咯噔了一下，难道限制级现在就上演吗？
　　
　　我是出去呢，还是阻止呢？还是赶紧回家呢？
　　
　　就在我心里挣扎的时候。。。
　　
　　小月月猛的一下弹跳起来，如同鲤鱼一般反弹到了床上。。。
　　
　　那种敏捷的动作，那神马地心引力，神马胖子不能运动理论都是浮云，都是浮云。。。

小月月在床上反过来，再翻过去，再反过来，再翻过去。。。。。
　　
　　我不厚道的想到了刚捏好的翻滚的牛肉丸。。。
　　
　　小月月开始呻吟，哎呀。。。老公。人家脚疼。。。脚疼。。。脚疼。。。
　　
　　然后用她勾魂的脚向小W的方向，一踢，一踢，一踢。。。
　　
　　一踢，一踢，一踢。。。
　　
　　一踢，一踢，一踢。。。
　　
　　一踢，一踢，一踢。。。
　　
　　
　　大家赎罪，我不知道怎么形容她那种神经过电的行为模式。。。现在刚刚是雷的开始。。。。2天1夜，我觉得我能活着来跟大家八已经是万幸。。。
　　
　　大难不死必有后福。。。。
　　
　　好，继续回到小月月。。。
　　
　　她反复的踢的过程中，我不意外的看到了鲍鱼。。。看到了菊花等等。。。。
　　
　　我想，我如果有蛋，我就蛋疼，但是那个时刻，我眼睛疼。。。。
　　
　　小W满脑子估计都在滴汗，他看场面太尴尬，半开玩笑半严肃的说，你再这样我走了。。。。
　　
　　我心想，恩，这才对吗，任由她这样翻滚简直就是犯罪吗。。。
　　
　　但是，我完全没想到。。。
　　
　　小月月开始咆哮了！
　　
　　是的，她开始咆哮了！！！！
　　
　　是的，她边咆哮边哭天抹泪了！！！！！！
　　
　　她喊到：哎呀呀。。。。我脚疼你都不管我啊！哎呀呀，你不爱我啊！哎呀呀,你是个负心汉啊。。。哎呀呀，你是陈世美啊。哎呀呀！你答应我的做不到啊。。。。
　　
　　我当时觉得整个空气都窒息了，头顶全是乌鸦。。。。呱。。。。呱。。。呱。。。
　　
　　小W开始有点忍无可忍了。。。板起了脸。。。站起来就说，你把我钱包放哪了，给我我回家了。。。
　　
　　我心里又是一个咯噔，小W走了，把她一个极品丢给我，那我不要活了啊。。。我当时已经有觉悟了。。。
　　
　　此时！小月月突然又笑了！是的，她笑了！
　　
　　变脸速度比川剧还快！真的，快的让我感觉她前面咆哮都如同不存在一样。。。
　　
　　
　　　我后来才理解，为什么小W还能忍受的了她，是因为双方家长认识，刚好小月月家长有世博的票，非要两个小孩子一起去看世博，顺便互相了解一下。。。
　　
　　他们双方家长是10月1日敲定的事情，当晚就跟我妈妈说，2号小月月通知我委托我找旅馆，3号他们就来上海了。
　　
　　拢共小W跟小月月见面才2次。
　　
　　小W因为感情受过伤，也年纪有点大，29了，想赶紧结婚好了。于是在母亲的施压下就跟小月月来了上海。
　　
　　在这个事情上，小W是个受害者，小W的妈妈是被骗者。小月月的妈妈是希望赶紧女儿嫁出去的，因为小月月前后经历了N个男人，惨被抛弃N次。所以见到小W跟浮木一样。才提供世博门票。
　　
　　而我，就是那个祸从天降的悲情人物！！！！！
　　
　　感叹我那本来应该及其美妙的国庆节！！！！！！！！！！！
　　
　　
　　好！场面回到旅馆房间，当时应该是3号下午的2点左右。。。。
　　
　　小W变脸以后，小月月笑了。。。
　　
　　是的，她真的笑了，然后，她光着身子，从床上鱼跃到地上，往卫生间走去。。。
　　
　　期间，回眸一笑，哎呀呀！人家开玩笑呢！人家要洗澡澡哦。。。。
　　
　　然后，如同演电视一般，扭着肥硕的屁股进了卫生间，我隐约从屁股上看到了三角裤的肋痕。
　　
　　她进了卫生间后，我跟小W楞了几秒，突然觉得这个如同戏剧化般的变脸好神奇，以前学校都没学到过。。。。
　　
　　这演技，神马曼玉青霞，神马刘德华梁朝伟，绝对是浮云。。。
　　
　　我们当时呆滞的，看到卫生间里，突然扔出来一只红色高跟鞋。。
　　
　　过了几秒，里面又传出呻吟声，恩。。。嗯。。。。啊。。。哎呀。。。哦。。。啊....
　　
　　我当时真想把手上遥控器砸过去。。。。
　　
　　然后，又一只鲜红的高跟鞋扔了出来。。。
　　
　　我醒悟了。。。难道，这个就是诱惑。。。
　　
　　我转头同情的看了下小W。。。房间没什么光线，他脸上阴晴圆缺我看不懂，但是我能感觉的到他浑身透出一股冰冷的沉痛的悲哀的气息。。。
　　
　　他轻轻的说了几个字。。。我。跟她，才认识2天。。。

　　上面有同学怀疑是不是真的，我真的在这里发个誓，要是有半句假话，我立马就有蛋，而且天天蛋疼。。。
　　
　　现在你们就觉得重口味了啊。。。。同志们！后面才是更极品呢，前面这个，跟晚上发生的，跟第二天发生的事来比，根本就是小菜。。。。对于这种人才，我觉得我连想象力在她面前都显得那么贫乏，那么无知。
　　
　　看了她以后，我觉得我前面二十多年都白活了，虽然说一样米养百样人，而小月月，绝对是计划外的那个具有人类行为艺术的另类生物。
　　
　　用任何词语来形容她，都根本乏味的狠，见面后，你才能意识到，啊，世界真美妙，夫妻都和谐了，什么房子，经济，柴米油盐，婆媳关系都是毛毛雨。。。因为一对比，娘来，神马极品都是浮云，根本世界和谐的狠！
　　
　　
　　画面回到旅馆房间，小月月进去洗澡，我深深喘了口气，打开电视想缓解下气氛。
　　
　　小W赶紧掏了根烟，礼貌的问我介不介意，然后在我表示没问题后，开始大口大口的吸烟。
　　
　　我估计他也是白活了快三十年，第一次开眼。责任感和愤怒羞辱感反复纠缠他。
　　
　　我考虑的是，得怎么混过去这两天送走她算了，他考虑的估计是怎么混过去，然后回家就拜拜。。。
　　
　　场面，我在看电视，他在抽烟。。。小月月在卫生间。。。。
　　
　　突然！是的！突然！
　　
　　真的是突然！
　　
　　小月月冲了出来！
　　
　　光着身子，身上有水，然后冲到小W的脚边开始翻行李包。。。
　　
　　边翻边说，哎呀，酒店的沐浴乳我怎么可以用呢，这不是毁我的皮肤吗？
　　
　　甩着两个大球蹲在地上，斜着眼睛对着小W说，人家可是美女，美女是要用好的。。。。
　　
　　我又仿佛给雷劈了一遍，小W的烟已经快到烟屁股了，但是他还在装模作样的吸。。。
　　
　　我眼睁睁的看着小月月，从硕大的行李包里掏。。。
　　
　　掏出了一个按压式的那种家庭装大瓶飘柔。。。
　　
　　是的！我没看错！是的！1升的那种大瓶装飘柔！！！！
　　
　　然后又掏出了一瓶不知道什么牌子的大瓶不知名液体！
　　
　　然后又掏出了一个硕大的香蕉！
　　
　　神马！香蕉！神马！香蕉？？？？！！！！！
　　
　　哦！是的，香蕉！！！！！！

在这里，我对天下所有的香蕉表示默哀。。。
　　
　　我能表达下当时我看到小月月掏出香蕉时我的心情吗？我当时感觉，是的，难道小月月是男的？难道是酵母？难道菊花不是配黄瓜而是改配香蕉？
　　
　　我承认在那一刻，我的想象力近乎为零，只有潜意识遗留的在天涯接受的腐女教育，但是所有的深刻教育内容没有一堂课教育我，一个胖妞洗澡的时候是需要香蕉的！！
　　
　　小W显得有点崩溃，沉默的又掏出一根烟。。。。
　　
　　我在考虑到底是问呢，还是不问呢？甚至闪过一丝难道是陷阱的疑惑。。。AV现场？
　　
　　好吧，小月月果然是神，只见她诱惑的甩着球，把香蕉剥开，先是舔了下香蕉的头。。。
　　
　　我不厚道，大家也不要联想，场面根本一点美感都没有，好比一个ET在你面前哪怕是群P你都没感觉一样。。。
　　
　　小月月对着小W舔了半天看小W没反应，哼了一声，又掏出了一个硕大的香蕉。。。
　　
　　我当时觉得不问不行了。。。难道要表演舔香蕉舔一个下午吗？
　　
　　我赶紧说，小月月，你洗澡弄什么香蕉啊！赶紧洗洗我们走了！下午安排好几个地方玩呢！
　　
　　此时的小W，眼观鼻，鼻观香烟，香烟熊熊在燃烧。。。。
　　
　　小月月哼了一声，然后把两个香蕉都剥开到一半，把香蕉肉挤出来扔掉。
　　
　　我当时反复揣测，皮干什么。。皮用来干什么，没有硬度啊。。。。
　　
　　后面小月月的举动，让我醒悟了，
　　
　　我果然是弱智。。。。

我记得这个值得纪念的时间是10月3日下午2点多。
　　
　　我这个已经多年的同人女后来升级为腐女，一路菊花黄瓜毫不变色的资深抗雷人物，
　　
　　当时也被雷的差点内出血。
　　
　　只见小月月将两个香蕉皮慢慢的贴在两个球上，又是挤又是贴又是吸的。。。
　　
　　因为她的两个球是搭下来的，基本上球的头部就是以6点位置直接指向地面的。
　　
　　香蕉皮很好的被卡在肉与肉之间。
　　
　　我惊讶啊！我被雷批啊！我当时有一种我到了外星的感觉。。。。。
　　
　　我艰难的问了一句，小月。。月啊。。。你这个是干什么啊！
　　
　　小月月见小W没反映，哼了一声。。。。
　　
　　她娇滴滴的说：保养啊！你懂什么，你没看我这个地方是粉红色的吗？用香蕉可以一辈子粉红色哦！
　　
　　然后十分慎重的跟我说，MM，你也记得回去试试。。。真的会变成粉红色。。。
　　
　　接着，她淡定的拿起两瓶大瓶装液体摇晃的顶着两个黄色的香蕉皮婀娜多姿的扭到了卫生间。。。
　　
　　我的嘴巴已经雷歪了，恍然记起还有个小W。。。
　　
　　再回头看他，他仍旧眼观鼻，鼻观烟。。。
　　
　　一种非常悲痛的感觉油然而生。。。
　　
　　小W淡定的说：我们明天回去，给你添麻烦了。。。
　　
　　顿时，我热泪盈眶。。。。我真是热泪盈眶。。。。。
　　
　　小W又淡定的问我，门口那个KFC是24小时的不？
　　
　　我缓缓的点头。。。我们之间形成了一股烈士般气场的氛围。。。

　我仍然记得在等待小月月洗澡缓慢的过程中，我一直在调电视台，从1到74，然后又重头1到74.。。。
　　
　　小W抽了无数根烟。。。
　　
　　期间，小W手机来了条短信，他看完，沉痛的放到桌上，正好在我左手边，我瞄了一眼，上面华丽的写着：小W，我女儿交给你了，好好玩哦！
　　
　　小W的脸是沉痛的，而我，用职业习惯开始分析，这个肯定是小月月的妈妈发来的，这个好好玩的含义很深啊！是好好玩上海，还是好好玩小月月。。。。
　　
　　而到现在我才明白，小月月玩的不是上海，玩的是寂寞。。。
　　
　　小月月终于公主出浴了，慢悠悠的走出卫生间，披了一个浴巾。。。
　　
　　真的是浴巾！酒店配备的。。。她也知道要披浴巾？
　　
　　然后她开始奥斯卡的演戏。。。
　　
　　一只手扶着头，一只手扶着墙，浴巾半披半拉，
　　
　　脸色潮红，娇喘连连。。。
　　
　　看那个样子，我还以为卫生间里配备了一个猛男。。。。。
　　
　　小月月一股侍儿扶起娇无力的感觉，然后娇喘连连。。。
　　
　　她喘了，恩！开始喘了：小W，恩。。嗯。。啊。。。人家。。。人家低血糖。。。洗澡晕。。。晕的。。。哎呀。。。哎呀呀。。。哎呀呀呀。。。。哎呀呀呀呀呀。。。
　　
　　天涯如果有医科的也帮我解释下，真的低血糖洗澡会晕吗？
　　
　　当时的小月月，可真的是娇喘啊，神马酵母估计都得佩服她。。。
　　
　　小月月缓缓的向小W伸出一只手，边喘边说:老公。。。。恩~~~~来扶人家一下。。。
　　
　　我尴尬的看了眼小W，小W又掏出一根烟。。。
　　
　　小月月看小W没声音，开始跺脚：哎呀。老公，来扶人家。。。人家。。。晕
　　
　　我一想，这不对啊！这么下去不是演限制级就是又要演祥林嫂哭戏了。
　　
　　我急忙冲上去，扶住小月月，抓住浴巾胡乱给她擦一下头。
　　
　　心里想的是老邢的口头禅：这货不是人类，这货不是人类，这货是大冬瓜。。。
　　
　　然后我没话找话的随口一说，咦，你香蕉皮别扔马桶啊！会堵。。。。
　　
　　说完我就想抽自己，MB的，叫你嘴贱。。。问什么香蕉皮！

　小月月用她朦胧的双眼瞄了我一眼。。。
　　
　　然后开始跟我科普，MM你真的不懂还是假的不懂啊！
　　
　　我憨憨的装笑，其实内心想哭：小月月，我是真不懂。你把衣服穿上我们可以走了。。。。下午还要玩。。。
　　
　　小月月严肃的打断了我的话：你刚不是问我香蕉皮吗？
　　
　　我当时开始幻想有一千双手抽我自己的嘴，内心反复骂自己：MB的问什么香蕉皮，MB的问什么香蕉皮。。。
　　
　　小月月娇弱的躺在床上，开始穿衣服，我呼一口气，迅速返回坐下。
　　
　　小W在翻空了的烟盒子，开始找没抽完的烟屁股。。。
　　
　　小月月，开始整理长款的大毛衣。。。然后开始了。。“说到香蕉皮啊，我得告诉你们哦，可以保养哦。。。哦呵呵呵呵呵！！！当然让我这里羞羞的变成粉红色，也要在澡澡的时候擦一下私处啊。。。”
　　
　　我嘴巴开始朝另一边歪，然后内心在骂自己：MB叫你问香蕉皮。
　　
　　小W成功的找到几根烟屁股，一字摆开准备挑选来抽。
　　
　　小月月继续科普：“擦的时候不能碰到毛毛哦，要从菊花向前慢慢擦，私处，哦呵呵！你知道我说的是什么地方哦？”小月月反复向我确认我理解她在说什么。
　　
　　我沉痛的点头，内心在骂自己：MB的叫你问香蕉皮。MB的她也知道菊花这个词。。。
　　
　　小月月得瑟的，慢慢的含羞带骚的瞄向小W，老公。。。人家私处也是粉红色的。。。。
　　
　　小W面部抽筋了很久。。很久。。很久。。。
　　
　　小月月看他没反映，准备急起来，我赶紧打断她“用完的不好扔马桶，要堵！”
　　
　　MB的，我自己又想抽自己，这么热心管马桶什么事。。。
　　
　　小月月淡定的瞄我一眼“怎么可能扔！人家把用完的吃了啊！香蕉皮好减肥的呢！”
　　
　　我脑子突然像是被几百个锤子锤了几百遍，不停的回荡着我的内心独白
　　
　　MB的叫你问香蕉皮。。。
　　
　　MB的叫你问香蕉皮。。。
　　
　　MB的叫你问香蕉皮。。。
　　
　　MB的叫你问香蕉皮。。。
　　
　　MB的叫你问香蕉皮。。。

跟帖的同志请放心，我一定坚定不移的写，我这口气得写完，憋着要憋疯。
　　
　　觉得速度慢的可以先马克过会再来。LZ是个厚道人，绝对不太监。但是把你们雷到哪里就不管我事了啊。哈哈！
　　
　　当时在房间里的小W已经坐不住了，估计他烟抽完了，烟屁股也找完了，没什么东西压制不住内心的憋屈感，站起来打断了香蕉皮的问题。
　　
　　对着小月月就丢一句：我出去买包烟，在外面等你们。
　　
　　小月月正在整理大毛衣呢，听到小W要走，立马有点慌神，啪一下跳起来，赶紧的套大毛衣。
　　
　　说实话，我看她穿那个大毛衣的时候，我身上都有种被毛线刺的发痒的感觉，起了一身鸡皮疙瘩。
　　
　　小月月迅速套上大毛衣，仍旧是没穿内衣，我了然了，为什么她的球的头是指向地面的。因为根本不穿内衣。
　　
　　然后她迅速套上牛仔裤，深吸一口气，将肥肉塞塞，艰难的扣上皮带。一边喊：老公等等人家，我们一起走了啦！！！！！
　　
　　只见她矫捷的穿上15CM的高跟鞋，一个华丽的无竹签版棉花糖出现了。
　　
　　她边喊已经出门的小W边把包垮上，然后对我翻了个白眼“你怎么那么慢啊。。。”
　　
　　然后推着我出门，她拔了卡，在电梯前，赶上了小W。
　　
　　这一切的行动完成最多不超过5分钟。
　　
　　而我，感觉一直在被雷劈。。。。。。
　　
　　当时出门时间，大约为10月3号下午3点30.。。
　　
　　一场惨绝人寰的悲情剧，就要开始了。。。

　宾馆不远就是一家大型超市，小W出门透了口气，眼光看向空气的问了我一下，哪里能买到烟。
　　
　　我告诉他方向后，然后小W让我跟小月月在超市门口等他。他去买了就过来汇合。
　　
　　我觉得既然出门了，人多的地方，小月月应该就会是个正常人了。
　　
　　但是，上帝当时没告诉我我错了。
　　
　　于是当时的LZ还有点缓过气来跟小月月一起走向超市。
　　
　　小月月神秘的问我，哪里有内衣买，我一想，咦，这孩子还知道买内衣包一下球了？
　　
　　反正没什么事，就跟她走到超市，超市一层是有一家内衣店的。
　　
　　开在超市的内衣店，是很普通的内衣店，就是卖一般内衣内裤的！
　　
　　我有点不耐烦，就在内衣店门口等，内心有个声音告诉我，离她远点好。
　　
　　小月月在里面挑了N件内衣。我在门口邪恶的想，难道晚上你想玩内衣诱惑。。。
　　
　　她的眼光真差，买好几个款式，只有一种颜色，就是那种肉色！！！
　　
　　我记得小S说过，女人的内衣千万不能出现肉色和白色，会没有一点情调。
　　
　　而小月月，好像对肉色情有独钟。
　　
　　我淡定的站在门口，人来人往，我内心惆怅。
　　
　　猛然，小月月一惊一乍的喊我，我回头一看，惊倒
　　
　　小月月举起两条肉色的内裤，一条三角，一条平裤一样，遥远的咆哮一般的挥舞着内裤问我
　　
　　“MM，哪件好看啊！看起来特别让人兴奋啊？”
　　
　　我那个脸，当时基本跟茄子一样了。我赶紧说“都好，都好！”
　　
　　来回的路人好奇的看向我，售货小姐开始欢乐了。
　　
　　但是我忽略了小月月的能力，她撒欢的举着内裤，咆哮的喊
　　
　　“你说我要是把这件下面剪个洞洞！是不是更性感啊！要是你看，你会兴奋吗？”
　　
　　我突然一下楞住不知道怎么回答。
　　
　　剪个洞洞？
　　
　　剪个洞洞？
　　
　　小月月反复确定“你会不会兴奋啊？你会不会兴奋啊？你会不会兴奋啊？会不会啊，会不会啊，会不会啊，会不会啊！”
　　
　　兴奋你MB！
　　
　　我当时觉得，已经是九天玄武雷劈下来了！
　　
　　售货小姐更加暧昧的笑起来，后面一个高个子的售货小姐还一脸了解的笑。
　　
　　我内心回荡着
　　
　　MB的，老子不是拉拉。。
　　
　　MB的，老子不是拉拉。。
　　
　　懊悔啊！MB的，为什么不跟进去，站在外面现在来回的人都看到我了。
　　
　　MB的，为什么站外面！

　同志们，我同情的看向你们，敢跟帖的都是英雄。。。
　　
　　我这一口气吊在这里还没挂，我相信，如果小月月再跟我呆上2天，你们可能就得到另一个世界去看我了。
　　
　　我继续八，千万不要怀疑真实度，我只能把她描写的好，我的文笔是真的没办法把她那种撒泼打滚变态心理行为描写的透彻。大家看到的只是表象，要是你们能围观当场，估计用金刚钻打造的眼镜都不够你们阻挡她的威力的。
　　
　　画面回到内衣店。
　　
　　我实在是抵抗不了当时她的威力，还好小时候看过三十六计，走为上啊！
　　
　　我大喊一声！老娘要撒尿！
　　
　　然后管他MB的众人眼光，立马转身飞奔找厕所.
　　
　　身后小月月威武的大喊“你等会尿完大门口等我啊！我把内裤买了给你看！”
　　
　　LZ一个踉跄，一腔悲情涌上来，背影都显得那么苍凉。
　　
　　看，看，看，看你MB。
　　
　　LZ也是责任感强，当时要是借口走人好了。但是想到LZ老娘那个包子脸，还是忍忍算了。
　　
　　LZ也不想尿，跟小月月在一起，一切生理活动都显得那么多余，那么不合时宜。
　　
　　赶紧到门口找到小W，MB孩子手上拿着一条烟。
　　
　　是的，一条烟。一条烟是10包，一包烟是20根，一共是200根烟。
　　
　　小W悲情的看着我冲出来，我从他的眼神里，看到了同情。
　　
　　于是我和小W在门口等那个华丽的挑内衣女子。
　　
　　小W淡定的说：真的，我跟她刚认识。
　　
　　我当时泪流满面，赶紧回说：我跟她好久没联系，你知道，她年轻的时候。。还比较，正常的。。。
　　
　　小W沉默。。。我们两个沉默。。。

当时时间是10月3日下午将近4点。。。
　　
　　我隐约看到小月月从超市内走出来，手上一个仿造的LU皮包，是她一路从老家背来的，另外一个是神马？
　　
　　那么大个包！！！！！
　　
　　难道她到上海来是来采购内衣的？
　　
　　目测那个大包，感觉想两个枕头加起来的厚度和长度。大家可以想象下她买了多少内衣。
　　
　　我头又开始疼了，这意味着，她将带着这一大包内衣，逛城隍庙，人民广场，南京路步行街，外滩。。。。。
　　
　　她走近了，是的，走近了
　　
　　身边还有个猥琐的大叔跟着她嘻嘻笑。。。
　　
　　我正好奇为什么这种货色大叔都敢看。
　　
　　走近一看，我懂了，小月月手中一个小内裤，居然是紫色的！！
　　
　　带花边，有小蝴蝶结的，隐约看还挺透明！！！！
　　
　　小月月嘴里咕咕噜噜不知道比划什么。。。
　　
　　小W遥望一眼以后，开始拆那一条香烟，动作艰难，好容易找到拆的口子。
　　
　　我抖擞精神迎上去，“小月月，你干什么呢？”
　　
　　她抬头冲我邪魅的一笑，“MM，你看这个内裤我从这。。。”她手举的很高，比划给我看。
　　
　　“从这个屁屁这，开个洞到前面这，行吗你看？”
　　
　　尾随的大叔咯咯的笑起来了。。。。
　　
　　我的脸，从茄子变成鞋子一样苦。。。。
　　
　　伸手夺过小内裤塞到她手上的包里，顺便看了一眼，果然，一个大包都是胸罩内裤。终于憋不住凶了一句“内裤好拿出来研究的吗？回去再研究！”
　　
　　猥琐的大叔咯咯的继续笑。。。
　　
　　小W烟已经抽上了。。。。
　　
　　小月月翻我一眼，把紫色的内裤又夺了过去，动作凶猛的甩给小W,一伸，差点伸到小W脸上。
　　
　　“老公！你看怎么样！！”
　　
　　小W，一惊，呛了口烟，咳个不停，往后赶紧的退了两步。
　　
　　小月月一看小W在咳，也顾不上内裤了，塞到包里，一把扶住小W。
　　
　　把整个内衣包都塞给我，责怪的骂我。“看你一点眼力都没有，我老公都咳成这样了，咱们找个地方吃东西去吧！”
　　
　　小W不停的让，但是没躲过小月月的凶悍猪手，终于被她夹住了胳膊。。。
　　
　　上帝啊，我是第一次现实中在男人脸上看到了被强奸的挣扎感。。。
　　
　　好吧，我忍忍！找东西吃！我MB的也饿了！

其实，如果是正常人，既然在旅馆附近的超市买了一包内衣，最好是送回旅馆然后再去逛街。
　　
　　但是当时我和小W的脑子已经被劈了好多下，完全没有正常人的思路。而小月月理所当然的认为她买了东西，带着就是，晚上再带回去好了。
　　
　　于是，按照小月月的安排，买完内衣，我们就去吃东西。
　　
　　LZ当时有点怕了她，走了几步路，看到有吃东西的地方就冲了进去，心里想，餐厅里，自己吃自己的，总归不会有什么问题了吧。
　　
　　现在想来，我太天真了。太天真了。
　　
　　餐厅是那种综合性的，什么都有，饭菜面等等。。。
　　
　　小W可能是饿了，一夜没睡坐车过来，中午一直折腾到下午都没吃，询问我要吃什么，我虽然饿，但是脑海中反复出现无辜的香蕉，就没什么胃口，跟小W说点碗混沌好了。
　　
　　小W深吸口气，问了下小月月吃什么。
　　
　　小月月这个时候还没坐下来，听到小W问她要吃什么。她居然。。。
　　
　　开始奥斯卡了。
　　
　　是的！她开始演了！！！
　　
　　她先是突然深吸一口气！然后是的！她开始作呕了！
　　
　　一个手捂住嘴巴，呕了！她呕了！怀孕了吗？NO！绝对不是！她在干什么呢？
　　
　　她说了！！！！
　　
　　小月月幽幽的呕了一下，轻轻的说，哎呀，我低血糖，吃不了东西。。。
　　
　　然后又呕了一下，立马有那种好娇弱好娇弱的感觉。。。。。演技真好！赞！
　　
　　“老公，帮我点碗粥好了。。。”
　　
　　小W忍了一下，将信将疑的就走了。。。
　　
　　小W一走，小月月以迅雷不及掩耳之事坐下来，然后哗一下把她的LU包甩到我这里，开始盘头发。
　　
　　边盘边用一种很高傲的口气跟我说，“我吧，优点就是太漂亮，你刚刚看到了，上海的男人都跟着我，想调戏我，哼！我看不上上海人的。。。。”
　　
　　小月月说的是刚刚尾随她的猥琐大叔。
　　
　　我尴尬的笑，面对着一个160斤，150CM的大冬瓜，漂亮，美丽，性感。。。神马都是浮云。。。
　　
　　上海人千万不要有压力，被她看不上是你幸运。。。
　　
　　小月月幽幽的又说：“其实我喜欢山东人，还有河南人，肌肉的抱着多舒服啊。。。”
　　
　　接着，45度幽怨的摆弄着桌布，“可惜，我有小W了，我要专一，虽然我很漂亮，那么多人追。但是我专一。我就是梁山伯，小W要是不要我，我就去葬花。。。”
　　
　　MB我说的是原话，绝对不是编的，狗日的，难道她不知道梁山伯是男的吗？

　小W点好餐过来，我跟小月月坐在面对面，他一时犹豫不知道跟谁坐
　　
　　因为我从他脸上看到了好像质疑自己会被糟蹋的神情
　　
　　我赶紧的把小月月的LU包跟内衣包放到我旁边的位置上，娘来，小W你要是跟我坐，那我还要不要活了。。。我还年轻。。。
　　
　　小月月刚刚精神无比，看到小W来了以后，跟条件反射一样又开始忧伤了。。。
　　
　　她居然。。。
　　
　　她居然。。。
　　
　　大家不要惊讶。。。
　　
　　她居然开始吟诗了！！！！是的！吟诗了！！！
　　
　　她一边装晕，居然一边开始幽幽的说词语。。。
　　
　　我隐约听到“花谢，花飞，霜满天。。。红萧香断。。。有谁怜？”
　　
　　她慢慢，轻轻的靠到小W肩膀上。。。小W已经让开只坐半个椅子，
　　
　　她居然在两句诗的时间内，慢悠悠的靠到了小W的肩膀上。。。。
　　
　　我真想夸她一句，牛逼！
　　
　　她念完以后眼睛里居然渗出了晶莹的泪花。。。
　　
　　我内心在猛拍桌子：我靠！张艺谋怎么不找你，MB的，入戏太快了！
　　
　　她轻轻幽幽的问小W，“有谁怜，有谁怜。。。我要是死了，你怜我吗？”
　　
　　小W慢悠悠的想让开，随身那个小塑料袋里面一条香烟，又拿出来一根烟，抖抖索索的找了个打火机。。。
　　
　　我当时就欢乐了，小W买一条烟还带买了四五个打火机。。。。我突然觉得悲剧变成喜剧了。原谅我不厚道。。。
　　
　　小月月见小W没理她，又开始抽烟，立马要变脸,说时迟，那时快，立马站起来，猛地叉起腰来！
　　
　　我一下立起了身子，这是演哪一出，我年纪大了，娘的，不爱看悬疑片。
　　
　　小月月开始怒吼，用咆哮马的姿势问小W，
　　
　　你怜我吗？
　　你怜我吗？
　　你怜我吗？
　　
　　餐厅的服务员纷纷注目了过来，包括吃饭的同志们开始指指点点。。。
　　
　　我环顾了下没熟人，还是找了个餐巾纸擦鼻涕。。。。
　　
　　小W给吓的一哆嗦。。。。
　　
　　抖抖的慢慢的小心翼翼的轻轻的问了一句：怜是什么意思？
　　
　　我内心狂笑啊！MB的，我们老家L,N不分。。。。

　当时场景应该是10月3日下午4点多，地点，莘庄某个餐厅。
　　
　　小月月咆哮完，见到小W好容易回了一句话，居然安稳的坐下了
　　
　　一把粗鲁的温柔的拉过小W的胳膊，挽住。
　　
　　然后甜蜜蜜的说，老公心疼我我知道，我不会让自己死的，更不会让你怜的。。。人家要让老公爱我。。。
　　
　　我当时内心也堕落了，分明把他们当演戏在看了，这场戏，绝对秒杀所有大牌导演的戏，什么阿凡达，什么2012，在小月月面前，根本就是演技不及格。。。
　　
　　后来我才反应过来，娘的，狗日的满月也敢念葬花吟。。。
　　
　　小W给她一惊一乍搞的有点慌，我分明看到他眼角闪过一点晶莹的泪花。
　　
　　这个时候，服务员把我的混沌还有小月月的粥端了上来。。。
　　
　　我欢乐啊，LZ一向对食物没有抵抗力，哪怕前一秒看到狗屎，后一秒看到香肠都是可以吃的下去的。
　　
　　于是，加点辣椒，加点胡椒粉，欢乐的准备吃混沌。
　　
　　小月月看到粥上来，没什么反应，拿起勺子准备吃，小W一口气呼了出去，服务员刚好也端了一碗盖浇饭，估计是小W的。
　　
　　这个时候，小月月又开始演戏了！！！！！
　　
　　她开始晕，细声细气的喘气说：哎呀，我晕。我低血糖。我闻到食物味道就恶心。。。
　　
　　然后她开始作呕。。。
　　
　　我无视她，吞了一个混沌。。。。
　　
　　小月月，艰难的塞了一口粥，好像不胜呕吐感，立马一抖。。。
　　
　　那一口皮蛋瘦肉粥就这么又吐到碗里。。。
　　
　　然后又泪花蹦出，我张开嘴开着她，怀疑刚才看到的咆哮马跟她不是一个人。。。
　　
　　她幽幽的又呕了一声。。。
　　
　　然后搅了搅那吐过的粥，又勺了一口到嘴里。。。
　　
　　立马又一抖。。。又吐到碗里。。。
　　
　　搅了一搅又勺了一口，混合着唾液和呕吐出的粥又喝下去。。。
　　
　　然后又作呕。。。。又吐进去。。。
　　
　　如此几遍。。。
　　
　　老子吃MB啊吃！什么二女一杯，什么人兽！
　　
　　MB，见过恶心的，没见过这么恶心的！

　当时我已经不想吃任何东西了
　　
　　见识过这么恶心的场面，我相信以后我的抵抗力会更加高，可以回去挑战下以前不敢看的深度级别柔情动作片了。
　　
　　看了下小W，他也有点接近崩溃，又开始哆哆嗦嗦的翻烟。。。
　　
　　小月月表演完以后，突然胃口大开
　　
　　开始吞那碗呕吐物混合粥。。。一下就吃完了
　　
　　哗啦啦的声音跟猪吃食一样。边吃边喊我。。。
　　
　　“MM，你怎么不吃啊，你吃啊，等会玩很累的！”
　　
　　我勉强的挤个笑容:我不饿，你吃吧。。。
　　
　　内心不断的开始抓狂，开始安慰自己，好在就只要招待她两天。两天她就走了。。。
　　
　　小月月吃完后，意犹未尽，口中念叨：哎呀，我低血糖，我不吃饱等会要晕的，哎呀，小W，你不吃饭啊！别浪费啊！我吃我吃！
　　
　　于是，她吃掉了小W的盖浇饭，满满一盆，还有一碗粥。。。
　　
　　难道，刚才那个见到食物就呕吐的人，是我的错觉？
　　
　　小W淡定的抽完烟，趁着小月月沉浸在食物中，又去买了两瓶可乐，递给我一瓶
　　
　　我感动的热泪盈眶。赶紧喝了提神。
　　
　　小月月正在享受食物，边吃边说，哎呀这个梅干菜没有我妈妈做的好吃，上海人真可怜，吃饭都没什么味道的。。巴拉巴拉。。。
　　
　　没注意到我们的小动作，不然，我估计我活不过第二天啊。。。

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好像太长了，你们有兴趣再看下去就到天涯网去看吧．
最后贴一张小月月的照片（用google image search 搜出来的）

抗体

2010-09-14T17:38:00.003+08:00

有时候觉得感情好像不能放得太重

陷得越深，越容易受伤

可是爱了，就很难收回

真希望当我们交了男朋友之后

双方都注射了‘第三者抗体’

可能就不会有那么多人出轨吧？

有些人能忍受一个出了轨的男朋友/丈夫

可是我决不能

一个出了轨的男人，

对我来说，

就像是害虫般的惹人厌

让我不想靠进

比较

2010-08-27T01:27:00.003+08:00

从小到大都躲不过被父母，老师，朋友，甚至是陌生人被拿来作比较
比乖巧
比懂事
比学业
比外貌
比家世

那未来呢？
比事业？
比家庭？
比孩子？
比成就？
比丈夫？

有时，我真的厌倦了人与人之间的这种来往方式
我想任何东西多了太多，我们都会觉得累吧？
就像吃了太多的冰淇凌一定会反胃

我真的好想暂时逃离这环境
就算是短短的一分钟，我也很珍惜

Actually I'm just envious and jealous of you

2010-08-14T16:04:00.003+08:00

I never thought that I could be this bad,until I really think about it. I wonders if any of my friends feel the same way as me before? Everything seems so perfect for others but not our-self. Maybe I just don't want people around me to feel that I'm a extremely low self-esteem and low confidence freak that's why I kept on talking bad about somebody...Words that come out from my mouth doesn't really mean it.Just talk nonsense. If only I can be the one who don't care everything and anything that's happen around me again...

My fairytale

2010-08-05T19:22:00.005+08:00

I really feel that when we stop bother how to get the fairytale like love,that's when we really know and understand what's true love. Maybe we've always been pushing happiness away from us ,because we always aim way too high. Simple is better, less is more...throw all those materialistic stuff and just look at the simplest thing that we did together,when we first hold hands,when we first met,when we first date,when you told me you love me more than anyone.

I believe that I'm the most lucky before and now ,and for the rest of my life,because I have a absolute perfect Man with me , wonderful friends right here with me and the lovely family members...^^

2010-07-26T23:16:00.005+08:00

I've been really stress at this period of time.It's like the there's a ultimate bomb right in-front of me and it's going to explode anytime. Everything seems to be irritating even though it's not. Sometimes, I really hope that I could be like some other friends,who can mix with their friend and went out to de-stress... But I just can't...The guilty feeling just strike me when I have the intention to went out for a break. I want to watch the sunrise and sunset...but it's so hard to really make it come true

明知道我爱你

2010-07-23T23:22:00.005+08:00

最近恋上这首歌

告诉你瞒着你只不过是个决定
放弃你忘记你只怕我无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你越靠近你越犹豫

明知道我爱你却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理幸福在手里
我恨自己无能为力

明知道我爱你却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意反而痛了自己
多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

告诉你瞒着你只不过是个决定
但为何到如今我依然无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你越靠近你越犹豫

明知道我爱你却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理幸福在手里
我恨自己无能为力

明知道我爱你却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意反而痛了自己
多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

明知道我爱你假装不在意
多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道真的没关系

这首歌简简单单的表达出一个女生喜欢上一个人的感觉
听着，心里真的觉得有点酸可是同时有点想念
我也不知道为什么

喜欢一个人的感觉因该就是这样吧？
想拥有，可是又害怕下一秒会失去他
放弃他，可是却舍不得
拥有了，又害怕有那么一天他会离开自己

一直逃避，逃避自己很爱他的事实
等到失去了他才了解
原来自己比想象中的还要爱他

后悔着，为何当时没珍惜他
为什么不要告诉他，其实我真的很爱你
告诉他，其实我想要和他共创未来，我们的未来

所以，女生，我们还是坦白的告诉对方心里的心情
不要等到失去了才后悔，才想挽回

我一直相信，缘分只有一次
错过了，就不会再有了...

不要误会，我没喜欢上别人哈哈哈XD

sick

2010-07-16T11:24:00.001+08:00

feel so awful right now.Have been vomiting from yesterday till now.Gastric pain too...aww~ I hate to be sick.Never ever been this sick before.I hope the sickness can leave me right away. Hardly ate anything yet...why am I always lost appetite when I'm sick.Well,actually not only when sick also when I'm stress.OMG going to vomit again...urgh.

mdm wong's shelter

2010-07-10T20:51:00.009+08:00

"I have overcome my fear towards dog!!" isn't that fantastic?! I've met quite a number of puppy and huge dogs today...Extremely friendly and adorable[ya.I mean the dog]. Actually most of the pets over there are teenagers/adult...When I first step into the puppy zone I already started to trembling.I was like "OMG! THIS IS CALL PUPPY IT'S NOT SMALL AT ALL!!"of course I didn't whine on this la,I just keep the words to myself. When you step into their territory they will keep on sniffing you and licking you non-stop.Yes.NON-STOP...CONTINUOUSLY by different dog...It's more like I'm the abandon puppy and they're the visitor who's trying to comfort me =.=...Perhaps this dogs are simply over-friendly.It's getting worse when we have to proceed to the next "higher level", the bigger dog. It's like a disaster when I step into that area...There's dog sniffing your butt licking your leg and feet and some trying to jump on you...They said we have to introduce our-self by letting them sniff our hands ,so that they will remember us by our body scent. Even though I really worry that they might bite me ,'cause my mum said that I'm like a bone. And dog love bones [maybe?]...But I'm totally wrong...they were so gentle..they sniff my hand and lick my finger.Never expected that.So we stay there to bond with them. And you know what? There's a male doggy stand up and put his palm on my butt!!(-.-''')....guys are guys...I'm trying to stop that particular doggy from doing that by moving away...slowly,because I scare it might fall and hurt itself...but it just stand there, didn't get my body language!!Luckily someone pull him off me.Phew...Okay enough of this long winded stuff.share some picture with you all.

The Above is TimTim, she's so fluffy and adorable.She'll start to be emo when mdm wong,the owner of this place is out of her sight..lol...

I warn you! Don't try to be funny or play with this little brown dog unless he find you to play...If not...haiz...But he's really cute too la...He was looking at us eating curry chicken...lol.That's the only moment I'm so close to her[as in distance].Oh btw,his name is BinPin

he's been adopted right at the day his former owner returned him back to here.

Do you love puppy which couldn't grow in their size?
Do you know that some of the pet farm go against the growth a normal puppy...They raise 3~4 puppy in a cage where normally it's for 2~3 guinea pig. It's cruel isn't it? The puppy's bone structure have been distorted and they cannot grow...

Ends with a picture of the poor mixuan...

want to know more about this Mdm wong's shelter?

http://mdmwongsshelter.wordpress.com/

something random

2010-07-04T21:14:00.004+08:00

a conversation between me & him...It's when I kept on talking about his ex-girlfriend...I just can't get enough of it.I think that's my obsession for the time,keep on mention his ex...

Me: I think I'm actually jealous of your ex

him:why?

Me: 'cause she had your past...

him: but you have my future...

heheheheheXD...feels like flying when he said that...But no use, I'm still jealous. Grrr.LOL...

2010-06-24T02:03:00.003+08:00

你说，你不是个浪漫的人
所以你不会做浪漫的事

不过，其实感人的事不需要花多少心思
越简单的东西才是我最喜欢的

有时，我总希望在你假期的时候
在我在等地铁的时候，你能够出现
告诉我“早安”

有时，我希望你能在百忙中简讯给我
问我“天气冷了，要包紧一点！我现在很忙，等下再回你”
而不是“吃饱了吗？”
然后音讯全无
过了几个小时才告诉我“我很忙”
你可知道在这几个小时里，我一直对着我的手机等你回我！
你知道吗？

每次都让我等，我很难受

不浪漫不等于如此啊！

我只想要你能够事前通知我，而不是事后
每次都说你没有，可是你一次又一次的从犯
理由总是你很忙

我好累

"ex-girlfriend'' phobia

2010-06-18T21:50:00.010+08:00

Last time,when I was still single,I always find it weird and sometimes irritated by some of my friend who always get so angry whenever their man mention anything and everything about their ex-girlfriend,or anything else his ex-girlfriend involve in...Now,maybe because I'm in this situation,that's why I started to have this feeling too...Let's call this "ex girlfriend" phobia.
some of the symptoms:

(1) Check their profile in any social network website to see whether there's trace of his ex-girlfriend.

(2) Always peeping his phone whenever there's a message or call.*It's super easy to check when your boy/girlfriend is using iPhone*

(3) Get so damn angry when you know that he's going to meet his "lao xiang hao'' *Old lover*/ Still contacting them *it's worst when they said "we're just very good friend"...they can jump off the building already*

well, that's some how how much I feel...

And,here's some of the taboo that you should never do:

(1) Get so happy when you bump into her on anywhere and everywhere..*Stop smiling and talk so much...shoo!!* Even if you are trying to be friendly please don't,you'll make the one next to you damn piss off.If your girlfriend is the type of girl in the "my sassy girl" than I will say "god bless you" you might either get a punch or slap in the face. If they really did so then they can jump off the building now.

(2) Went out with your old lover,no matter it's with a group of people or whatever.You can go to hell now.Don't try to explain...no use...Who believe they you can never "rekindling the past romance" *Direct translate from Chinese:旧情复燃* It always happen...not only in the television show but in real life...

(3) Neglected your girlfriend and happily chat with your lovely old lover...I think even hell is not a place for you.It's too good for you...

Some of the things that I hate about those "trying to be nice" ex-girlfriend:
*well I didn't encounter this,but it doesn't mean won't*

(1) Act like they are so friendly and talk to me...*Please save it to yourself,I'll just feel disgusting if any of them trying to be friendly with me especially when they keep on talking about their story...Do I know you in the first place?*

(2) still having contact when they have already broke up...Oh that's so sweet isn't it? Trying hard to be friends even you had broken up with him? HAHAHAHA~ So great! You can still talk about your past while their own girlfriend is staying at home hoping that their boyfriend to accompany them.And oww~so sweet! Talk about the place where you all first kiss,where you all know each other...Get a life please!

(3) Asking a date with the "boyfriend"..aww~ so sad...why are you trying so hard? Don't you find it weird to date someone else lover? You must have suffer a lot ya? Why can't their current girlfriend stop interfering your business ha? Oh! I get it...in this world you and him is the only human and the other's are all no-feeling-living-thing right? You have to survive the world! I get it...

(4) Call him for help when you had a tiff or broken up with your boyfriend...wow! Soul mate! Maybe you can snatch them back at the same time...if not why are you still calling them? Oh! I'm wrong! You're best friend of him right? You just need some comfort right? You have to make sure that their girlfriend won't end the same way as you are *And those boyfriend are so a bad *** who always response to them when they need their help..*

I just get so paranoid whenever I saw their name appear on his phone or wall*facebook*. Maybe he might feel that I'm like a witch who's blaming the pathetic lovely ex-girlfriend...If that's so every girl is a witch when it comes to love.Because they love you that's why they get so angry over this stupid thing...Who wants to hate people man? I don't! Of course I never hate them...but I just having this "ex-girlfriend" phobia that I cannot get rid off..It's not because of the trust or not trust part...Every girl will mind this! If you are a girl and you said no.Then I'm sure that you have been lying to yourself in your whole life...Well,I mean to those who have really love someone and been in a relationship before...Everyone hopes to find the right one.But we will meet some of the bad one so that we can find the right one right?And I'm just trying to not to meet so much and hoping that he could be the one.But who knows?

Grant me my wish!

2010-06-16T22:54:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I really hope that I can just "ma li ma li homm" then Xiuting & Jam will appear right in front of me...lol. I got so many things to tell you all when I'm down...even if I'm not I still have endless topic to talk to you guys! Sad...Not only to them I also hope I can use this on JX...Ma li ma li homm and he's here...How great will it be if we're living in a magical world...I'm so stress up by the coming common test...didn't even touch my book yet!!! GOSH!And I seriously miss my brother so badly...

What a bug!

2010-06-09T23:33:00.002+08:00

wow! I just witness the war between human and smelly bug? I don't know what this bug call...Let's call it smelly bug cuz it's smelly.Well,I have been bitten by some creature and cause lots of scars on my leg and now MY BUTT!! At first,I thought that it was because of some other reason.But this problem continue.More and more scars appear on my leg.Just in 1 Night...=.=...Gosh...Don't know how much blood this tiny yet evil suck from me! GRRR!!! I hate insects!Poor me

Spare a thought for me please!

2010-06-06T11:37:00.003+08:00

Gosh,I hate this feeling!When can I have peace when I'm at home? Do you know how does it feel when it's your home but you just can't do whatever you want and you have to see other people's face.Hello!Is it something wrong with you?It's not your house.So stop showing attitude here.Don't give me some shit reason! I don't want to hear.it's all excuses for you...

2010-05-30T22:46:00.004+08:00

Hello my space...Long time didn't type anything here.I've been really busy since the school reopen.So,I don't have the time to blog.But mainly is because I don't feels like blogging...no blogging mood.So now I'm back to revive my little space again,even though I'm still quite busy and lazy...Just came back from the kranji Dam??? I really feel that it's a beautiful place and romantic if:
-there isn't any insects
-the grass is not wet
-there's a lamp right above the bench
-more Chinese(so that I won't feel so weird)
-the glass of the car is not foggy...(it's scary & dangerous)

the conclusion,I hate the ants...I think it never had their supper yet...that's why they bite us...Oh ya!~I forget to type down what I've been doing & things happen these few months...

Firstly,My birthday surprise(16May).I never ever expect my Best Friends will gang up with my Boyfriend to give me a birthday surprise.I really really thought that Jam & Xiuting had forgotten my birthday.Even so,I still never blame them because they're really busy especially Xiuting.She didn't even have time to sleep(I know I exaggerate a bit).So I really didn't expect much from them.I just hope that they could just send me a "Happy Birthday"sms will do...Which they never did.So on my birthday,I went out to celebrate with JX.and I really feel happy.At least I have him with me...hahahahhaXD.When we finish our meal and *BOOM* here comes the 'mei liangxin-s'(lol) holding a birthday cake and singing birthday song...The first thing came to my mind is "eh~how come they're here.so "qiao" ah?".When I finally realise that they're giving me a surprise (I know because I saw JX laughing & obviously it is ah! If not why got cake!) I broke into tears...Stupid! Dare to make "shou xin" cry!DA DAN!We chat a little and laugh a lot....hahahahaXD.................................................................................................................

Secondly,my school...Super stressful.It's a double stress to me compare to last year because my brother is not in SG.I have to do a lot of things by my own and even if I have doubts I still have to continue...For now:
-Every week got maths homework
-Psychology assignment
-communication skill 2 assignment
-e-commerce assignment
-lab test next Thursday
-e-quiz tomorrow
-maths class test next week during tutorial
-common test approaching
-more lab test coming
=.=....out of breath...
Lastly,my grandmother is hospitalised.Of course not in Singapore.She's in china now...So I can't even visit her.I did called her few days ago and she's having high fever that day.I told her for quite a number of times that I'm her granddaughter,tingting.But she doesn't seem to remember that it's me on the phone.And she ask me "when tingting come back?".I feel so heart pain when she ask me that.I told her I will go back to visit her when I graduate,which is in 2012...and she sound so disappointed...=,( 外婆，要快点好起来哦！我会每天拜拜希望老天爷能保佑你平安

BTW,there's another thing...someone is living with us right now.And I'm really piss off by that person because I hate lazy bum! Cause so much inconvenience for us.Plus the weather is like shit now-a-days! I cannot tahan! Rashes are growing all over my body...so itchy....especially my leg...left a big patch of scar there.=.=....

自私/虚伪

2010-04-23T22:08:00.016+08:00

有时候我总被一种感觉害的自己整天提不起劲

你们有遇到我以下所诉说的事吗？

在某种场合下，你总觉得自己被冷落/忽视
有时候，他们会和你说：我们是好朋友
可是他们说的和做的完全相反
这是他们口中的朋友吗？

即使他们看到你为难的表情
可是却视而不见
或是在你遇难的时候
没有伸出援手就算了
还不闻不问，继续自己的行程
或是取笑你

可是有时他们有会‘化生’ 为你所认为的朋友之间的那种关系
让你开始怀疑自己之前所下的定论
即使身边的人一直提醒着你
可是你还是坚决地相信他是你的朋友

或许他们看不见自己所作的某些事其实已深深的影响着另一方
或许这就是大家所了解的‘虚伪的人’

我认为的朋友不是真的一定要像电视里的老好人
我只是觉得生为朋友是因该要在适当的时候帮助对方
多多少少都必须要顾及他人的感受与想法

我指的并不是任何一个我所认识的人
只是有感而发
你不必对号入座

2010-04-20T23:01:00.002+08:00

天啊~！这是什么跟什么啊？
目前开学已经两天了，
结论是：我真的很累
好想睡觉呀！！

而且我还没拿电脑去修！
怎么办？
下个星期开始就必须要带电脑去学校

在这个时候就特别希望哥哥还在新加坡
可是现在他还在中国实习

=( 几时回来呀？
我们都很像你叻

强颜欢笑

2010-04-13T21:08:00.006+08:00

我觉得在我妈妈店里最难受的除了温度
还有必须每时每刻保持着笑容

即使在感情上受了委屈/难过都不能留漏出来
即使身心再疲倦也必须要热情的招待每个客人

有时候真的想封闭自己
这样我的世界里只有自己
不需要在乎任何人
不会受半点委屈
也不必硬把苦水往自己的肚里吞

而且我不必在乎前女友这话题

我想每个女生都受不了自己的另一半/男朋友提他们的前女友吧
如果你的回答是一点都不在乎
那我觉得你可能并不那么喜欢他
或是在欺骗自己

我也曾经一直说我不在乎他和前女友有来往
可是等到你真的爱上了
真的面对自己的心情
那就发现，其实我很在乎

男生总是说女人很小气
我觉得男生很难搞

你吃醋，他说你小气
你不吃醋，他就说你不重视他

我想我以后还是嘴巴闭紧点
不需要去在乎所有的一切
做个潇洒的女人

2010-04-11T23:48:00.006+08:00

OKAY! I planned to wake up early tomorrow to make a appointment with the salon than go Giant to stock my snacks...After that,I will be helping my mum again at her stall...geez...Such a hot weather and I still have to stay in the 'oven' =.=...And one particular customer always find trouble for me...Always talk nonsense with me and juggle me around.Sometimes I felt like shouting him "I'm selling food not to entertain you! SIR!! ",and run home to take a nap at my cosy bed=(...I Know! I must spare a thought for my mum...she need to stuff herself in such place everyday.It's 30 over degree Celsius over there okay! SUPER DUPER HOT!!! My forehead never stop perspiring over there...Can you imagine?

远行

2010-04-07T23:45:00.002+08:00

看着哥哥的身影离自己越来越远

鼻子一酸，眼泪就在眼眶里打转

家里的每个人，都以自己的方式来掩饰自己的不舍

爸爸一整天都忙里忙外，帮哥哥买日常用品

妈妈也是，一整天都沉默

看着哥哥真的上了MRT，眼眶开始犯红

哥哥也一直抓着妈妈的手，一直安慰妈妈

我呢？我尽可能的不说太多

因为我知道，话一多，我就会开始流泪

哥哥我们都好像你噢~

虽然你才离开几分钟

可是我们都觉得好不自在

我想Yixin也好不舍得吧？

2010-04-04T01:44:00.001+08:00

OMG!!! My neck is so itchy!!! Cannot tahan the itchiness =.=...
It's terrible when you are allergic to so much of stuff...SHIT!
*scratch* *scratch*

2010-03-31T17:51:00.005+08:00

我什么时候变得这么神经质了？

以前我从来都没想象过，有一天会有个男朋友

因为我总觉得，男生不可能会受得了我

我是个脾气暴躁的人

可能一开始认识我的人都不这么觉得

可是一旦和我相处久了自然就会见识到了

好像年级越来越大，脾气就越来越不好

怎么回事了？

haiz~ 我去面壁思过吧~

更年期到了吗？

不过有时我真的不懂

女朋友到底要怎么当的？

男生可能都希望自己的女朋友千依百顺吧？

可是我真的不是这样的女生

2010-03-31T17:30:00.001+08:00

原来越简单的东西越难得到

其实幸福很简单

2010-03-20T17:53:00.003+08:00

如果你觉得自己很幸福
为什么还在怀疑那是不是属于你的呢？

明明这一秒我们紧握着手
可是我却害怕
下一秒
你会在我身边吗？

明明这一刻我们是相爱的
可是我总怀疑
你是爱我的吗？

其实幸福很简单
不要总是把视线放远
或是质疑它是否存在

看看你面前的幸福
珍惜眼前人

其实我们都很幸福

2010-03-15T00:38:00.008+08:00

I can hear my dad and mum is chit chatting in the room even though their door is close.This is one of the pros of living in small flat...Just now I had a lecture from my parents.It's regarding the "coming home late"and "went out late at night" problem of me...My mum told me she called JX's phone intending to give him a scolding because of this.Luckily she didn't get through...Phew~ I know they're concern and worry about me. My dad really scared that I might get raped ,murdered or kidnapped by my boyfriend.I know it's ridiculous...But to parent everything is possible.okay let's see whether I really gone overboard

Before relationship
-have to be home by 8pm
-never went out after 5+pm
-cannot go out everyday

From the start of this relationship,
-I received tons of bad comments and got scolding or even quarrel with my parents
-My parent disagree
-quarrel with JX about my curfew

Than,
-curfew extended to 11pm sharp
-first few week after the extension of the time I always come back at 11pm sharp or earlier
-but after that I always come back at 11++,the latest is 4+am at the next morning
-constant scolding from parents

now,
-parent started to dislike JX
-so little time to meet

Hmm~It seems that I'm really breaking a lot of promises that I promise my parent.
I know the only solution is to come home before 9pm and never go out after 6.
but sometimes you have to know

-when you're with your boy/girlfriend even to friend too,you always neglected that the time is passing...
-someone like me,who hate noise so much will never off my silent mode
-I always put phone in the bag or somewhere~so I didn't realise that my phone is ringing...that's why whoever trying to reach me will go nut...

haiz~! I'm so sorry=(...
From today onwards I will obey this rules:
1.Always off the silent mode
2.Come back home before 9pm
3.Never go out after 6pm
4.Always check my phone every now and then
5.Smile always

regarding the last rule it's for my relatives...I know that my aunt and uncle had been feeling real awful when I'm not smiling...because they thought I don't welcome them or find them irritating...and my mum said I'm very rude all the time...Yeah~I know...I just don't know how to change this attitude of mine...

2010-03-10T13:41:00.003+08:00

我觉得我身边的女生好像都在debating 女生和男生谁最可怜
我，当然是站在女生这边啦

记得Xiuting告诉过我
她问过每个男生

如果有2个女生
1.胸部特别大，可是却是个胖妞
2.非常漂亮，可是没胸部

你们会选哪个？

男生一定是选1 号的
你们不要装模作样了男生

这是事实，女生自己也了解的事实

当女生真可怜

像我这样的女生更惨

没身材
没样貌

什么都没有 =(
也太倒霉了吧？

可能有一天自己的男友跟人跑了也不一定

haiz~ 人生啊~

why?why?why?

2010-03-09T15:04:00.002+08:00

last Sunday I went out with Xiuting.And we talk about the appetite topic? Do you guys feels that when you've a packed schedule but you have good appetite or better.When you have nothing to do at all,and what you've been doing is rotting at home and your appetite just go down...Sometimes you might even feel like puking when you see food? Well,xiuting is the busy one and I'm the rotting one...lol...I promise that I'll try to eat more and hopefully gain some weight but...it just doesn't seem to work the way I want it to be...Everyday I just feel so boring and no appetite...And I tried to drink some milk...but eww~ it taste terrible to me...maybe not that bad when it's icy cold but not after you leave it on the deck for few minutes...=.=...I don't want to be more skinnier!!!I think I'm still 42 kg or lesser...My goal is 46kg...so hard...can anyone teach me how to gain weight?

2010-03-06T13:48:00.004+08:00

I told myself to go to library to read some book but I just don't felt like moving.Even though I told him I'm going to library...=(...Mood swing...all thanks to the stupid monthly blalalala...crazy=.=...Why I always like to create trouble for myself and others? I'm wondering... Maybe I'm a spoiled brat like my mum said... How? so guilty now...I'm sorry!!! T.T

hurt so badly

2010-03-04T22:54:00.003+08:00

I've never ever push the blame to her that oh~it's her who makes me fail this or that...because of her I can't this or that. I'm just doing what she wants me to do and complete what I have to complete but in the end...it's all my fault...I know she's in a bad mood because my cousin blame her for causing her to get such a bad result.And dad she said dad seems to be so reluctant to help her and I'm always seem to be unhappy when she ask for my help.And she can't ask my brother for help because it's his last year.I didn't said I don't want to help her...And why is she flipping out all the old things and talk about it over and over again...I didn't said I'm not wrong...I just want to do what I need to...I have to made a decision when I have 2 things to do at the same time right? I'm crying because I just can't stand the tone that they use the words that she use...I'm just feel so guilty and sorry but at the same time I just feel that she's magnifying the problem...Always comparing me with others and makes me feel so useless and worthless...DO you know how it feels like when the one who you really love and cares about said things that hurts your feeling? From the "not helping her" to my attitude to my relatives to my boyfriend and back to the topic...and kept on stressing that I NEVER EVER put myself in her shoe.Does she put herself in my shoe before? I know it's so hard to throw away your pride and all those thing... You always ask me whether I did what a daughter should do...may I ask you have you did what a mother should do? When I'm fighting with someone to stop them from talk bad of you and get bullied by others where were you? When I need you the most you weren't there... I never ever said things that hurts you but you always ALWAYS judge me hurts me so deep that I can't stop doubt myself...am i so lousy? I've never been the brightest crayon in the box compare to my friends and classmates. in terms of looks,result or anything...I thought you told me I'm special in my own way...But now you told me that you've been enduring for what I did for so many years.......you really makes me felt like dying right away...No matter who's fault it is I'll be the one who say sorry....Always the one who beg for your forgiveness...sometimes I just feel so left out in this family...just feel that I'm a burden of yours...so useless...

2010-02-22T19:25:00.003+08:00

Have been cracking my brain on the maths question. I TOTALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO!!!HOW???????HEADACHE!!! I have to go insane every time during exam =.=......why can't I suddenly kapom!!! than I become a genius.duh~day dreaming

2010-02-20T20:48:00.000+08:00

最近恋上何粉了~
好好吃噢~
hohoho
滑滑 duiang duiang 的
wow!!!弹性
流口水了
怎么说到好象很变态啊？
何粉大人原谅我~
爱死你啦！

2010-02-20T18:33:00.001+08:00

hahahaXD I'm watching Alvin and the chipmunks 2...I was laughing at fildo's line "and you piupiupiu all day?" hahahahaXD OMG

2010-02-18T19:36:00.002+08:00

真溅！

2010-02-18T18:30:00.004+08:00

AHH!!! HOW??? I just can't get myself to start revising!!=(...
Saw jieliang's girlfriend,shermaine this afternoon..At first,before she arrive,I ask jieliang how tall is she.Rather than tell me her height he ask me what's my height.I told him 159...[round up cannot is it?] than he told me she's taller than me...IMPOSSIBLE LO!!! FROM HER PHOTO SHE LOOK SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PETITE!!! HOW CAN BE TALLER THAN ME!! But I was so wrong after I met her.SHE'S REALLY REALLY TALLER THAN ME.I THINK IS AROUND MIXUAN'S HEIGHT 162~163!!!WA!! SO TALL LO!! SOME MORE SO FAIR...CANNOT BELIEVE IT...SO SHOCK...but compatible with jieliang la..because he's also very tall...lol...

and and and !!! The main point of writing this entry is not to rant about this la...hahahaXD just want to post 1 picture

He say can post his picture ma~didn't say cannot post picture of him sleeping...

unknown caller

2010-02-16T14:45:00.002+08:00

Receive a call from someone who call weijie...weijie? This name sounds familiar but the person on the line doesn't sounds like the one I knew years ago? I only remember the weijie from TANGS...lol...Kind of weird.And he ask me whether want to go out to watch movie or drink...drink? duh~ Everyone who know me knew that I can't drink...not even a sip...hahahaXD It's really really weird~ Why someone who don't know who they call yet still call them to meet him? =.=...

2010-02-14T20:12:00.002+08:00

我爸妈说都这么迟了不要出去庆祝情人节了吧
听了有点失望
而且他现在还在亲戚家
第一个情人节就要孤单的度过了吗？
失望~
可是不能怪任何人

还是不要期望什么吧
自己祝自己情人节快乐
大家快乐！

Boring Chinese New Year :Warning!! might hurt your eyes

2010-02-14T14:32:00.004+08:00

I'm so bored!!!!!!!!!!!nothing to do and feel so stress...My mum said first day of Chinese new year we have to be happy.SMILE~ It's so hard to smile...It's like there's a 10000000000000000000000lb of weight hung at my edge of the mouth...hahahahaXD If that's really true than I think my mouth can touch the floor le hahahaXD mouth extension~!!! LOL!! I'm not prepared for my exam yet =(...how? how? how? how? how??? I think maybe is because I become MATURE le!!!!! Confirm!!hahaXD That's why I don't look forward to Chinese new year anymore...Please say yes~!

XING NIAN KUAI LE!

AH! few days ago,my brother read a article on newspaper...it's something about palm.My brother said I'm belong to &@^#(* type of palm...(I forget the name le).And it wrote that those who have this palm likes to learn a lot of thing but they couldn't decide which to concentrate on ,so their advice is to learn to be ZHUANG YI,lol...I'm very ZHUANG YI leh! On certain thing la...I think I'm greedy~I want to learn a lot of things and know a lot more knowledge than what I need to know.......I think...I'm just too WU LIAO le...hehehe^^

Was playing fire cracker yesterday night.My brother and his girlfriend laugh at me=.= my brother said I'm older than my cousin yet I still play this kind of childish thing...child at heart you know? you know? you know????

oh~ my pudding

2010-02-09T22:24:00.003+08:00

I was craving for pudding just now ,so I went to the kitchen to take one from the refrigerator.At the same times my brother was watching movie and the volume is way too loud so I shout to him to lower down the volume while I'm taking a pudding form the refrigerator...And the my poor pudding just dropped on the floor."shit!"that's what I said after the pudding dropped.Coincidentally my brother was standing beside me after I called him.Than he ask me "you call me for what?" .I said"I call you to lower down the volume,it's too loud."...You know what he told me? he said he only heard me say 'shit'...duh~so from the start he heard non of my words.So you can imagine how loud is the volume...He can't even hear me just now and my pudding dropped!How 'GREAT' is that? GOSH~so I take a pudding for the 2nd round,and you guess what? I DROPPED IT AGAIN!!!!!!! And this time,it FLY out from the container/cup when I was trying to squeeze it out from it to my bowl...AHHHH~TERRIBLE PLUS HORRIBLE!! my brother still laughing at me and told me "you're too greedy that's why you didn't get to eat that pudding"=.=...are you trying to tell me that the pudding rather go commit suicide than went down my stomach?....sooooooo stress nowwwwwww

SORRY! I'M BLUR!

2010-02-05T22:14:00.003+08:00

I really can't stop laughing when I recall what I did today!Gosh~WHY I DIDN'T SEE PROPERLY BEFORE I SHOUT MY FRIEND'S NAME!
Today,after my lab test I accompany Hidayah and Surendar to south canteen to eat.While I'm blabbering about how badly I done for my lab test I saw Shuqi walk pass and smile at me.Than I have a OS"I have to say bye to her if we finish".When we're about to go off,I shouted"SHUQI!"across the table and all the people who sit at that table turn around except her.I really don't know why she didn't turn around and look so engrossed with her food.So,I did my usual angry pose and stare at shuqi...BUT!!! She still didn't turn around...*here comes the funny part* I walked towards her and stand right infront of her.I look closer.'eh!Shuqi's face why change so much?'That's the OS in my head.Than she lift her head up..OMG!!! I CALLED THE WRONG PERSON!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! SHE'S NOT SHUQI!!!!! EVERYONE LOOK AT ME LIKE I'M A WEIRDO....OMG!!! I TURN TO MY FRIEND AND THEY LIKE LAUGHING LIKE MAD!!! SO PAISEH!!! AIYO~! WHY I MAKE THIS STUPID MISTAKE!!! I quickly walked away and did my usual paiseh action *stomping when I'm walking*....har~I CALL THE WRONG PERSON I CALL THE WRONG PERSON...And I myself can't stop laughing as well...After I left the canteen I receive a message.IT'S SHUQI!!! 'PLEASE LET SHUQI BE THERE WHEN I WAS CALLING HER JUST NOW' another OS in my mind.AND SHE'S REALLY THERE WHEN I CALL HER.She said my blurness is beyond cure =(...so bad...I'm sorry!!! I know I'm blur!!!

2010-02-05T17:30:00.003+08:00

上网查了查质料，
我大概了解到底是怎么回事了
是没那么担心了
可是还是有点难过
昨天鼓起勇气告诉妈妈
我想明天早上去诊所检查检查比较好
越快解决越好

Am I thinking too much?

2010-02-04T21:31:00.003+08:00

I know I have neglect this thing for a very long time since the day I feel it...For no reason I start to check it out again.And I started to feel afraid now.Maybe it's nothing and I'm making a big fuss about it.But...what if it's what I thought it were? Please don't be so cruel to me~ I think I should just went for a checkup to ease my mind...I hope it's nothing...not something SERIOUS! Haiz~I just can't calm myself down now...I'm terrific!!!

Relationship is like a ride on roller coaster

2010-02-03T17:04:00.003+08:00

Every time when we talk about this sensitive topic he'll always feels so bad about himself.I don't know whether you guys have the common issue.When he's so low,I really don't know what and whether I should say something.I just want to tell him he's better than what he thought he were.He's so much better at everything than he thought...I know that there's no perfect in this world.But to me...you're nearly perfect...Although sometimes we have tiff...Nobody is perfect.And I believe there won't be any perfect person for me out there.There's always flaws and I have too.I just know that you're the one,the one who I want to be with...A relationship is like a ride on roller coaster,you share your ups and downs with the one next to you...I hope I'm the one...

update:
I really don't know you guys.Your could scold him/her and say you love them at the same time...I'm tired now...really tired...

2010-02-02T21:09:00.003+08:00

GO MOKEBALL!!! CATCH THAT PANDA! hahahahahaXD crazy! I really don't have much sleep this few MONTHS!! Everyday I rarely had 8hours of sleep...Just like yesterday! I only had 4hours of sleep!!! Even my mum told me that my eye bag is growing bigger and BIGGER and my panda eye too~can camouflage with the charcoal...I know I'm exaggerating.You don't have to remind me...

Yesterday I wore a loose sleeve t-shirt to school and my mummy said that I looks like a bat~Indeed!! Gray colour somemore hahahaXD

And my phone's cover was like the tree bark now~so many scratches and cracks. duh~When can I learn to take GOOD care of my stuff? And 1 more thing~Chinese new year is coming so does valentine's day...AND IT'S AT THE EXACT SAME DATE...good thing or bad thing? =.=...*shake head*+*sigh*...Anyone, please bluetooth some fats to me~!!

AND AND AND today I didnt saw him at the bus stop =( Was so tired!But I still woke up early in the morning at 6+.I was sitting on my bed and considering whether I should go school early just to see him at the bus stop...In the end,before I made a decision I fall asleep again.Urgh!Can't stand myself...I'm going to accompany him to school this saturday!!! YEAH!!! So excited!!Hope NOTHING ruin this!

2010-01-29T00:51:00.002+08:00

I don't know why suddenly I started to like the skyblue colour. Whenever I looks at this colour I will feel relax and peaceful...Does the colour you like vary depends on your mood? Jamaica~Siewting~ when can we go to sentosa to picnic again? I want to look at the blue blue sky...

sorry~I'll be a big girl

2010-01-26T22:08:00.005+08:00

I think I have to stop finding troubles for him.Suddenly feels that I'm such a burden to him...He have to work and study at the same times.And,I occasionally will find his trouble =.=...which I don't know why too~duh~SO CHILDISH!!!Have to be more mature!I'm going to be 20!!!20 20 20 leh! lol. Someone who's mature won't do such thing...yeah!okay~I'm going to write down "have to be more mature" in my 2010 resolution...wahahahaXD ...btw btw btw~HERBAL ESSENSE CONDITIONAL IS REAL GOOD...I'm going to dump Asience for herbal essense...wahaha~poor thing... okokok have to be mature~bye~^^v

I think I don't want to end this post this short,shall add something on.I remember Alex mention about study and relationship.Do you think relationship affect your study? To me I don't think so,because so far I could manage my study...I hope to him too...And I really agree with him that if your boyfriend / girlfriend wants to break up with you/wants to take a 'break' for few weeks or more~that means that there's something wrong.If they really loves you they won't "break" with you.They will find a way to manage their own time.And how you know whether after this 'break' they will come back to you? Maybe...Maybe not...Don't use study as excuse.It seems to be the best way to reject or 'break' with someone but you're actually wasting their time...

And and and...Those whose zodiac is rabbit will have a 3rd parties 'invaded' to their relationship???!!! If I found the 3rd party I will chop you off I tell you!!! hahahahaXD Ofcourse I'm kidding...I will just say " bye " *glare*

2010-01-21T22:42:00.003+08:00

AHHH!!! I'm so sad now! T.T I'm having rashes all over my leg! It's so disgusting and it was so itchy! I can't stop my hand from scratching it and there's scars all over =(...Nobody cares for me...so sad!!! *SCRATCH SCRATCH* My dad say it's skin infectiong =(...I think is because of the hair remover cream!!! STUPID CREAM!!! WHY AM I SO CURIOUS ABOUT THIS STUPID CREAM AND ENDED UP LIKE THAT!!! I KNOW I HAVE SENSITIVE SKIN STILL DO THIS STUPID THING!!!SHIT!Someone save me~ and my mum call me to went to the clinic right after my school ends...how? HOW ABOUT MY PROJECT??? SHIT!

STM

2010-01-20T19:07:00.002+08:00

I think my STM is getting worser!!I CAN'T REMEMBER WHETHER THE TRAFFIC LIGHT IS GREEN OR RED!!! I know you might find it silly~but do you know that it's very serious ?What if I cross the road when it's the 'red man sign'?Later I was banged by the car how? I don't want to die so early! Still got so much things that I want to do and haven't do...And I'm so blessed now!=( Can't affort to die!!! Must becareful!!!

2010-01-14T23:16:00.004+08:00

I think he might be still on the plane or just reached.It's been 3hours from the time he left Singapore.=(...I don't know why I started to miss him so much~Hope he will come back safely...Remember your promise.We have a date on Tuesday... Mummy just ask me whether I want to buy new clothes for new year...well~I don't felt like buying =.=...because we don't have much relatives in Singapore,so that means we won't be home visting...so~ for what buy new clothes? all red=.=...only new year and Singapore national day wear meh?lol...maybe I should buy other colours.Mummy said we should buy....haiz~And I have to change my spectacle real soon~ as my degree had increase...duh~stare at the computer screen for too long...

T.T...STUPID BEN DAN SMS ME! okay~ I will be a good girl and don't reply/sms you when you did from oversea as what I promise...stupid!!!

2010-01-10T23:55:00.003+08:00

=( He's going oversea this thursday
because it's 12am now that's why I use "this"
Although it's just a week la~
parted for a week only
ok de la?
hor? hor? HOR?
*smile*

I'm kind of stress now~
still got projects on hand and some I didn't even touch it!
OMG!!! What am I doing?
ALL THIS LAPTOP FAULT LA!
Really know how to choose timing leh~
haiyo~
*guilty*
hao la! actually is my fault...
I always accidentally hit it and had improper shut down for few times...
Few times only hor~! not all the time.
haiz~
You see!! Stress until don't know what I'm typing about =.=

The end of this year is the start of the next year...

2010-01-01T14:19:00.010+08:00

wahahahaXD HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
It's 2010 now!!!
I'm going to be 20 soon!!

OMG 20 leh!!
The main point is not because I'm 20 now.
It's because my age is not starts with '1' it's '2'..
ya~I know you want to say I old le...
Upgrade to 20 le leh!!Hope my intelligent also upgrade la~hahahaXD
Almost everyone is talking about their resolution of 2010,this new year.
But I don't know what's mine~lol
if you ask me what's my wish for the year I'll still answer you the same answer~
'I hope everyone I loves and cares and everyone who loves and cares for me and their family will be happy and healthy'
That's my wish...
I know you will say '"wa~hen hao ren leh~"
hahahaXD thank you thank you~

FINALLY!!!He bring me to Changi airport..hoorray!!!
Why I likes that place?
Because it's the nearest place in Singapore from my hometown...
hahahhaXD actually not only that la...
The main reason is...
CHANGI AIRPORT IS BEAUTIFUL!!!

OH YAYAYA!!! I forgot to mention something!!
now then I know that,sakae sushi's coke is in glass bottle!!
WOOOW!!! SOOOOOOO MANY YEAR'S DIDN'T SAW SOFT DRINKS IN GLASS BOTTLE

saw that! saw that!!!!!

okay la~I know some people sure will say"looks like ah ma when you curl your hair"
soo~
nar~
BOOM! back to normal...

childhood memory

2009-12-27T19:13:00.008+08:00

Few days back I was talking about the snacks we ate when we're young.Every time I saw places that sell the kind of childhood snacks we ate, it will trigger my memory of my childhood.My childhood memory counted as quite nice la and extraordinary compare to my classmate,because I'm a countryside girl(once).I think some of the tidbits you guys had ate before.
for example:

I don't know what this call
totally forgot the name for this sweet
it's like a whistle when you bit it in between your lip and blow.
but I just can't blow as loud as my friend...

the magic pop...lol
it's still available la
but didn't ate this for years

Tang hu lu!!! I still remember that when I was still a little girl
my parent bring my brother and I to watch the opera
yayaya~I know very LAO right lol
but that's what the countryside people love to watch at that time
it's like movie to them
well...I seldom saw people selling this at the countryside at that time
I will only saw people selling this when there's a opera performing
They poke this at a broom like stick and it bloom like a porcupine
they sell variety of Tang hu lu
not only the type that you saw in this picture
there's starfruit Tang hu lu,
and many many more
I ate this and starfruit flavour only
that's why I only remember this 2 flavour ma hahahaxD

Maltose? I don't know what it's name in English
we call this mai ya tang(麦芽糖)
and actually you have to twist and pull until the colour turn white before you eat this.
Why?Because it won't be that sticky

and maybe this?

Have you guys drank this before?
it's call marble soda (direct translate from Chinese:弹珠汽水)
it's just a normal soda but why is it so special?
because there's a marble inside.
when you brought this from the grocery shop the marble is secure at the cap area
and before you drank it you have to knock the cap with force so that the marble will drop to the bottom of the bottle and you will heard sizzling sound of the soda
so shiok!!Love this drink but I can't find this anywhere in Singapore
neither can I find this when I went back to china for holiday
but I think it's still available in the market in somewhere...hahahaXD

And for the below I think you guys didn't ate /heard of it before unless your are the around my age or older

it's strips of fruit...it will stimulate your appetite
it taste like sour plum sour yet a taste a little sweet...
It cost a few cents only...

this can still be found in china la...
it's made by maltose and peanut
I love this
I love sweet stuff
in the middle of the maltose there's peanut filling
this is the colour of the mai ya tang when you twist and pull it for sometime
when I was shopping in china I will saw some people selling this outside the shop
taste the same...so nice~It cost around RMB$2.50 if I'm not wrong

looks like horns right?
I don't know the name for it as well
my parent call this niu jiao means cow's horn
just cook it and you can eat le
miss this thing...it's a fruit or what?
I can't find this anywhere in super mart now...so sad=(

hahahaXD This is...well I forgot the name as well
it's made of some flour I think?
really crunchy...
I remember when I buy they'll give me a mini paper umbrella
Last time I brought this not because I like to eat this but for the super duper small paper umbrella because it look really cute
It taste quite bland
really cheap...not more than 20cent in RMB(ren ming bi)

and many many more...
It's not all brought from the store
as I mention I'm a countryside girl
I live near the mountain and lake and farm~
Sometimes I will climb up the mountain at the back of my school to play and we can find wild berries and fruits(not really wild sometimes,it belong to some farmer hahahaXD)
I'm not like the city girls who play barbie doll and expensive toys
but I don't need a barbie doll to be happy
what I experience is something that people in the city might not experience before
and something that money can't buy...
and I'm just a simple girl

miss those days,when everything is so simple

2009-12-26T00:42:00.004+08:00

JINGLE BELL JINGLE BELL DADA DADALA~
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
It's the end of 2009's christmas
Let's look forward for 2010's christmas!!
wahahahaXD~
This is the 2nd time I celebrate christmas
Have much more fun than the previous year.
I'm sorry that I SO late...
I love the presents alot...really cute

and another present from you...1 of the best hehehe^^
and also thanks lenon,thank you first before the present arrive...
really nice of you for that.

and a normal tree at the car park
took this picture while I was waiting for someone
at that moment I really think that it looks like christmas tree
but now...it looks just like a normal tree =.=
maybe that day I had some problem with my eyes.

night guys~! have to sleep now...Merry belated christmas

random

2009-12-21T23:11:00.002+08:00

OMGGGGGGGGGGG SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

u don't have to try so hard not to fall asleep~hahahahaXD

wow!!! lip syncing lol...funny

2009-12-21T01:41:00.000+08:00

很多时候大人们都只会一味的灌输他们所领悟到的东西给孩子
却忘了，怎么聆听孩子的心声
看清什么才是他们真正所需要的
他们曾经不也是个孩子吗？
为什么明知故犯？

mindset

2009-12-19T19:24:00.015+08:00

每天起床你第一件做的事情是什么呢？

刷牙，洗脸，找眼镜还是上厕所？

过后找食物，填饱肚子，上班

要填饱肚子所以我们找工作赚钱活下去

为了找到好的工作于是我们努力寻找能够帮助我们找到好工作的学历和学校

为了能够找到好工作我们努力的读书

那些放弃学业的人总是被人嘲笑是个“傻瓜”或被瞧不起

如果我们不找工作还是要找钱来活下去

可是...现在的我们还是为了这个目的而努力吗？

我们想寻找的是别人的认同和自我的价值

找工作是为了求温饱决不是大多数现代人所忙的事

我们无形中相信着

找到好工作赚大钱，

赚到很多钱就能赢得人们的喜欢，尊敬

帮助我们找到爱情，共组家庭的人，好朋友

其实我们是渴望与人分享，交流生命，渴望关系，渴望爱，渴望友情，亲情

却错以为，唯有先找到很多钱和好工作才能完成

于是我们每天忙碌异常。

我们总是以“想让家人过得更好”，“我这么努力都是为了你们”来解释自己的异常忙碌

甚至放弃了工作以外的生活

等到我们渐渐的变老了，生病了。

然后我们花钱找青春，买活力，想健康

于是我们运动，健身，找保养品

照一切能停止我们老化的方法。

秦始皇找长生不老，而我们和秦始皇有什么分别？

没钱时，我们赚钱想办法活下去

有钱了，我们找朋友找爱情

为了让自己活得更好。

有了一切，我们找永生

只是我们不向上帝找

我们向世间找延年益寿的灵芝，仙桃。

渴望肉体的永存

好能够在这世界上享受荣华富贵

当我们寿以尽，必须离开的时候

我们愿意放弃所有的财富

只为了能够多活一天

看自己生命一点一点地消逝

内心匆满了悔恨不甘

那为什么我们不好好的珍惜自己所拥有的

等到即将离开的时候才来后悔呢？

我们只能活一次

不是该好好的过

不要再埋怨

快乐不需要找

它一直都在
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当你问我愿不愿意陪你一起在炎热的咖啡店卖小吃谋生时

我现在会回答你 “我愿意”

2009-12-16T19:55:00.010+08:00

I've always been thinking about this...
why on certain part of other people's life they're so lucky
why they're so optimistic...
Now I know...
My mum said "一个人的天堂地狱是掌握在自己手里"
You want to feels like you're in heaven / in hell is all depend on yourself
on your own mindset
Although I always told my friends that fate is in our hands and we can change what we want to be /feel.But I myself didn't imply this on myself.
I forgot about this...

When you found that the whole plate of cockles are rotten,actually it's not.Because you're using the rotten cockle to test on the fresh cockles...Don't understand? Open your Secondary Chinese textbook and you'll found this story...The moral behind the story is when 1 or 2 people/thing you meet is bad it might be their fault.But when everyone you meet is bad that means the problem lies on yourself.Nobody will always encounter bad incident in their life...

WHY?WHY?WHY?

2009-12-13T14:43:00.004+08:00

aHHH!!!I can't take it...so stress=(
and I'm not in the right track yet...
Can't get anything into my mind...
so far only finish revising maths...
but not 100% confirm that I could do the paper tomorrow...
ARGH!!!DIE LA!!!
Time wasted...

新的心情

2009-12-06T19:03:00.001+08:00

剪了一头新的发型
可能曾经剪过类似的发型吧？
想说希望剪了新的发型后能够有新的心情
赶走犹豫，赶走霉运

Look back...

2009-12-01T22:48:00.008+08:00

Warning!!!lots of Photossssssssssss

Exam again...SO stress...=.=...
A blink of an eye I'm going to be a Polytechnic year 2 student in few more months...actually is almost half years later la hahahaXD but half a year still counted as a few months ma....hehehe^^

Really getting older and older...
not as kiddish as the past
LOOKS LA LOOKS LA!!!
Don't so ganjeong stop me can a'not
I didn't say my behavior hor!~.~

my EXXXXXXXXXXXTREMLLLLLLLLY small neoprint that we took few years back...hahahahaXD...can you spot me?

me in my sec sch uniform....hahahahhaXD

me and my cousin in the library when I'm preparing for my...Olevel....erm...maybe N level? AIYA! Can't remember le la...old le ma~

Secondary school classmates(girls) & Mrs Heng...
I remember we took this at teacher's day...
Now we all graduated(of course la! if not why I'm in poly? SIAO!)

Another super small picture...
I think is..............can't remember...

cousin...

with Esther~my ex-colleague and she's a really nice person...

Then,went back to china...

start poly life...

hahahaXD...all my picture...
Don't even know what I'm typing...=.=
haiz...
I remember my cousin and I took alot of videos and pictures tgt with stupid pose and stupid conversation...hahahahhaaXD...
Everytime I look at the pictures and videos again I'll start laughing non stop...
hahahahahaXD

考试要到了

2009-11-30T22:58:00.001+08:00

加了一首新歌叫做“雨爱”
还满好听的哦~

哈哈哈哈哈XD

我现在丢失了乐观
怎么办？
我不喜欢一个人

原来快乐那么简单

2009-11-28T19:00:00.004+08:00

总是会听到身边的人投诉他们的人生有多悲惨
有时自己也会想为什么自己那么倒霉
就像这几天一样

不过我发现有时误会是可以避免的
只要坦白，把心里想说的话说出来
做自己就可以了
不需要饰演一位伟大的人
你就是你
无需掩饰自己的缺点
无需隐藏真正的自己
因为别人喜欢的是真正的你

2009-11-25T10:48:00.004+08:00

一部爱情剧，有主角也有配角
主角门总是会有第3者的介入
或是有一个人在他们分手之后为主角疗伤
到最后主角发现原来他们最爱的人还是那个他/她
观众们总是会因为他们重归于好而鼓掌
他们就这样过着快乐的日子

可是你们忘了，忘了那个配角的存在
成为一个代替品的感觉是多么难受的呢？
我觉得最可怕的事情就是你以为自己是这场爱情剧里的主角时
才发现，原来自己只不过是个配角

Those days in friendster

2009-11-24T21:52:00.003+08:00

hahahahahaXD I can't stop laughing now...I'm browsing through the Friendster mail now.Searching for his mail...that he send me in the past..10/17/2008 7:43pm,I think that is the first message I received from him titled "." lol...I can't stop laughing at our conversation...Our first conversation is on my age then, my O level paper then bla bla bla...and I can't remember what's the "something" he wants to tell me...hmm...nevermind I shall ask him..sms him or maybe call him...hahahaXD*mum and dad just come back and got scolding from my them now no mood=.=...there they goes "bla bla bla bla bla"nagging non stop on everything and can't stand everything that I do when they're in bad mood...*11/19/2008 4.33pm is the last message he send me............=.=.............Totally no mood!!! I just can't stand nagging...

2009-11-22T21:15:00.000+08:00

有是会想说“我们不要见面了”

Christmas atmosphere in the air...

2009-11-22T17:41:00.004+08:00

Went to JP with Xiuting this Friday right after I came back from school...It's been a long time since I last went into the Kiddy Palace.There's so much changes inside the shop.HAHAHAXD.

Really looks like a Palace

Looks like Funfair inside hahahaXD

hahaXD Xiuting I CAUGHT YOU!!!
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Then,the next day I went for a movie with him...hahahaXD."A CHRISTMAS CAROL".I think sometimes human will only appreciate/cherish something/someone when they lost them.The day before Xiuting told me that I'll be the first among my friend to catch the movie,and she's right!WOOO~Alot of things that Xiuting predict is coming true...well only on love matters hahahaXD...Had a great day...The next movie I want to watch is "Alvin&the Chipmunks 2","Twilight saga-new moon" and he said he want to watch "Avatar"...Excited...But I don't know whether I have time for that...because exam is 3 weeks from now...STRESS!!! Alex transfer this virus to me...kept on saying "STRESS~"

雨天

2009-11-18T19:33:00.009+08:00

现在那边因该是冬天了吧？

新加坡的温度也变冷了

现在的我和以往不一样了
身份不一样了吧？
可是似乎雨季带给我们的感觉还是一样的
那么忧郁

好像身边的人都因为雨季而感到郁闷
到底怎么了呢？

结果我也逃不过
我也被大家散发出的忧郁给影响了
觉得好困

希望我的他快点打起精神来
也想让他知道我一直在这里
明天会更好的努力=D

那有人会把愿望写出来给大家看的啊？
怪人！
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把坏心情撒出去
好心情收回来

2009-11-17T19:26:00.000+08:00

If 2012 will be the end of the world what will you do/what you want to do?

2009-11-15T22:28:00.003+08:00

4 more weeks to common test...I need someone to teach me !!!

moody

2009-11-13T20:26:00.006+08:00

It seems like my bad mood are accumilating.Everyone will feel moody and aggressive sometimes.Me too.But I don't know why people always make a big fuss of me throwing tantrum or when I feel piss off by what they did.You have attitude,I have as well.You can't expect me to be nice and accepting everything even when I'm not in the mood to joke or whatever...Please stand on other people's shoe to think and feel.Not only expecting others to understands you.Problem doesn't lies on other all the time,it's your ownself...I admit that I have some attitude problem sometime .I admit.At least I admit and willing to control it.Some people around me just don't want to admit.Even if they admit, they still carry on with this kind of attitude and giving me non of your business look.Ya! It's none of my business.But when they use this kind of attitude towards me,it's my business...GOSH...Give me a break...

09-11-2009

2009-11-09T20:15:00.005+08:00

JIAYOU!!!!! CHIONG AH!!!!!!!!!!! lo hahaXD

School reopen for 3week+ le!!!
SOOOOOO FAST!!!

I'm quite bored during this semester...
Everyday felt so reluctant to go to school...
The first thing I do when I wake up is reset the alarm clock
why?
because I want to sleep for another 5 minutes
and 5 mins
5 mins
In the end,I'm going to be late
or will reach school at the exact time....

SAVE ME!!! I don't want to feel so bored every school day!!!

2009-11-08T23:33:00.002+08:00

tick tock tick tock
1 hour
tick tock tick tock
another hour

I hate to wait....

have you ever get to a point when you started to scold yourself?
ya!
I'm doing so now...
I scolding myself for can't bear to off my phone for few hours
CRAZY!

没什么

2009-11-05T21:34:00.003+08:00

我发现，随着年龄的增长
我们好像越容易觉得寂寞
你觉得呢？
记得小时候，即使没人陪我吃饭我也不觉得孤单
如今，只要一静下来
我就开始觉得空空的
好像缺少了什么似的
寂寞也偷偷的在作祟
让我忍不住叹气
也忍不住在想“如果他在这里就好了”

而且总是在想如果得事
不过我也不忘了要往前走
向前看
不停的进步
不想再成为别人的垫脚石，
也不像永远排在最后

要加油哦！

LAME

2009-10-28T20:23:00.003+08:00

nom nom nom~taste so good...

after few minutes

byebye~see you again~haha^^

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^^ JIAYOU for your test!!!

2009-10-27T20:25:00.003+08:00

WHAT? SCHOOL REOPEN FOR 2 WEEKS ONLY?! I thought for a month le leh.Project started all that...hmm...feels quite okay.Just that I don't like to wake up early in the morning and I'm still late for this 2 weeks!!! SUPER SIAN!!!I don't know why I just can't be energetic! Everyday so reluctant to go to school...=.=...

失落失落还是失落

2009-10-21T20:44:00.002+08:00

明明是在冷气房
为何还会流汗呢？
我想可能我太累了吧？

眼睛都肿了

RANDOM

2009-10-18T01:28:00.007+08:00

I'm so so so sian now~School reopening at next Monday.Why my holiday just gone like that?! T.T I haven't spend much time playing and sleeping!!!

and the worst thing is I'm still sick now.This is what I had for every meal recently...

I hate Bitter gourd!!!
me:why are you so bitter ha?cannot be sweeter ma!
bitter gourd: if I'm sweet,why my name is bitter gourd.
...

OMG I'm talking to once-a-life living thing again!? haiyo!BEH TAHAN MYSELF.
HAHAHAHAXD

went to Daiso with my cousin right after my work yesterday.
They started to sell christmas tree accessories.hmm...christmas is coming soon~
Time flies ah~ haiz...
I'm happy that I have grown up but I'm quite sad that my parent are getting old...=(
Can my parent don't get old and at the same time I can grow up leh?
hmm~isn't it nice? hahahaaXD think too much...

sick

2009-10-12T22:49:00.002+08:00

爱心牌凉茶

谢谢你^^

我爱你

boring

2009-10-09T00:43:00.004+08:00

每天等车都会看到...

孤单的路灯
我也不知道为什么路灯会给我孤单的感觉
可能是时不时的有落叶吧？
那，为什么落叶会给人孤单的感觉呢？
应该是因为联想起秋天吧？
那为什么秋天给人孤单的感觉呢？
hmm...我好像想太多了

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2009-09-30T16:02:00.003+08:00

ALOHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! hahahhaXD.
Just come back from mum's stall for an hour.

some people hor~really terrible leh...乱乱怀疑我！

2009-09-26T20:42:00.002+08:00

今天切辣椒的时候没戴手套，所以手指像着火时的...痛
直到现在还在“燃烧”着

2009-09-25T22:18:00.004+08:00

我想...我真的是个坏人=(................................................................................................................

我很想你

2009-09-24T00:37:00.003+08:00

Hi guys.I think some of you guys still feels the jittering,after knowing your results today.hahahaXD.It's really a tiring day.Woke up early in the morning to check my result and rush to mum's stall right away...I just finish watching a movie just now and felt like blog something.Why I watch a movie?Because someone told me to..hahaXD..."Coraline" that's the tittle of the movie.It's a cartoon...hmm...After watching this movie I just felt like apologise to my mum and dad ,and maybe my brother as well.If one day they went to another world and I become a perfect daughter/sister[I mean another me but not me.confusing?],are they willing to come back to this world? If I went to another world and found a perfect parent and brother...I'll still come back and I don't want to be with them...I want to be with my real mum,dad and brother and every single of you...Although there's so much things that I can't stand about you but I still love you.I really do.I can't imagine if I lost your...I might lost the purpose for living.And I know that my words are always harsh whenever your gets on my nerves.I'll learn to control my temper...I really felt like crying now...crybaby OMG...SIAO...hahahaXD...I know this feeling might gone after awhile just like the adam khoo's enrichment program we had last year[rmb?]...The motivation only last for few weeks[less than 3 weeks for me]...but I just felt like writing it down and remind myself...sorry...really sorry...

2009-09-17T00:15:00.001+08:00

“我可以抱抱你吗？”

2009-09-16T14:09:00.004+08:00

Just came back from KKH.Dehydrated le la!!Bad weather!I still prefer rainy day.My temper is as hot as the sun when it's sunny day =.=...CRAZY

2009-09-15T22:32:00.004+08:00

hello peeps..I'm so bored! If people will die from boredom I think I'm one of them.lol...CHOY~! Hungry Ghost festival haven't over leh.Is it? hahaXD.AH! I know what to blog le! Have you guys heard before"ulzzang" ?Ofcourse it's not a ghost.This word is a korean word,I think this word means "best face"...let me show you guys some pictures of the ulzzangs.It's not only for describing girls.

PRETTY RIGHT?RIGHT?RIGHT?RIGHT?RIGHT?
YA! hmm...I think all ulzzang had perfect skin ,bright eyes and also photogenic.
AH! I remember there's a survey regarding .....ehhh....something related to those who always look at pretty ladies.They say that guys who look at pretty/hot ladies their heartbeat will become faster and it's for them.hmm....something like exercise eventhough you didn't.So...if a girl looks at hot babe or hot guy is it the same?...if it's the same for girls den I exercise alot le hahahaXD.AND,I'm not lesbian okay!Not only Guys can admire the pretty ladies!Girls also can right?

2009-09-13T18:44:00.002+08:00

2009-09-11T11:38:00.003+08:00

I just woke up from a dream.I had to share this dream with you guys!! This is the weirdest dream I ever had in my life!Okay.From the start of the dream,I dreamed that I walked into a corridor.There's numerous door.Everything is painted white.I don't know why suddenly there's a gigantic bear came out from the largest door which is located right infront of me,with a big pancake shape rock rolling towards me!!! My leg seems to be pinned down to the floor.I couldn't move.Then a rabbit came and push me to the side."Watch your step,newcomer!"the bear shouted.Newcomer? I think the bear is refering to me.[okay.I know ur might be wondering if I'm crazy.how could a bear talk?Maybe he talks human language or I suddenly was able to listen and speak animal language...hmm...hahahaXD lame].Then,the rabbit tapped my leg[as you know rabbit are small.and I'm 159cm.ofcuz tapped my leg la.how to tap my shoulder?jump and tap ah? hahahaXD funny]."Which room you want to join?" rabbit asked me."I don't know" that's what I replied to it's question.So,it introduce every room to me.There's room with tiger,room with deer,room with wolf and rabbit and room with wolf and deer.I don't know why they make things so complicated lo.why can't they just put wolf together leh.Then I choose wolf and rabbit.It'll be better to stick with someone who I had already know,maybe just for few mins =.=. After I think a few hours,rabbits heard there's footstep sound.So they hide me on a bush of dono what thing.Like what the rabbits and wolves had predict,they knock the door opened and the asked them where's the newcomer.They tell them they don't know.But they said they could smell that someone who don't belong here is here.Then they search all over the place,ofcause include where I hide.And eventually they found me.Abruptly,the rabbit pulled me away and escaped into the forest.The forest is really very beautiful.It's like I'm in a fairy tale.The rabbit delegate me to a grandmother who live in a water house[cause it's build in water,so I call it water house hahahaXD].I started to help grandmother with some chores and have fun with all the animals there.I forget the part why I become friend with a ant.And I gave ant my favourite book'Alice in the wonderland'[sounds like this dream].Nothing can escape from the evil ones.Every story is like that.So does my dream? =.=... HE FOUND ME!!!AGAIN!! I know he's not going to do anything to me such as kill me or whatever.But I just can't stop my action.I just hopped onto a horse and...wait!when did I know how to ride a horse? nevermind.And so does he....and blablabla I don't want to talk about it.It's quite personal hahahahaXD...At that moment I sense something is going to happen.And it rains like cats and dogs now.So I told him we have to go back now.On the way back I saw a lot of places was flooded with water [ofcuz is water la.if not fire meh?raining leh].Include grandmother's house.Everyone was struggering to survive and helpping each other.Everyone is the same. on the road many ants couldn't walked anymore cause they're so small and the raindrop is way bigger than they're and stronger and I put them in my pocket so that they could get dry and warmer.When I reach the house,everyone was packing their stuff and ready to hide from this disaster.My best friend,who's an ant was staring in the water and insist to jump into the water for the book.I stopped it.But it told me he can't lost this book because it's what I gave him...I'm really touched you know!!! I want to cry at that moment.I decided to swim down to search for the book.But grandmother said I can't swim and suggest me to wait till the rain stopped.So we animals and humans climb up to the hill together.When I reached the top,I realise that ant is not with us! I was so worried but they don't let me go down to find him.Coincidentally,the hut on top of the hill can see the water house.I was staring at it.wondering where could the ant be.will it really jump into the water to find the book? Suddenly few wolves 'pop' out from the water.One of them had the book on it's back...T.T.....so touched....but where's the ant?.........and I woke up from the dream...=.=...now I still thinking where the ant is ~o~ cannnot stand myself...it's just a dream...gosh =.=

2009-09-05T00:47:00.006+08:00

Hi guys! Finally blogger is back to normal!!
maybe it's just for a second.But never mind.
This few days I've been working on the
birthday present for somebody.
It's xiuting who suggested to bake cake and cookies.[we only make cake]
And she's the one who accompany me to buy the ingredients
and make the cake,as well as Shuqi and her mum.
Really thank you! I love you guys...
[Shuqi and siewting sure will puke when they saw this]
Well,I've never bake anything before.
Maybe once in secondary days?LOL.
Actually baking cake is quite a easy task,
just that we don't know how to at first.
That's why we took so much time.
It's what Shuqi said.And I totally agree with it.
Although I didn't make the cake all by myself.It's 4 peoples effort.
I really worried that the spongecake will be done badly
but it turns out to be the opposite
Durian cream is a disaster.
It's so difficult to coat the cake.
But overall it's quite fun to me.
So does Shuqi da jie and xiuting ba?
Having good time insulting me hor?

For the receiver
Please think again!
It's very risky to eat the cake.

2009-09-01T14:29:00.004+08:00

Just finish watching Marley and me.It's really a nice movie.Funny and ...warming???I don't know why I say that hahaXD.Maybe it's raining outside now...I remember someone told me before about a story of a dog.It's a real life story happen in japan.I wonder if you guys heard this before.There's this dog,he always wait for his owner to come back home at the same old spots.everyday he did so.It's like it's he's daily routine.One day,his owner didn't come back at this particular time which he'll..Days after days,he still didnt saw his owner's.But he didnt give up.And,he didnt even eat.Just sitting there waiting.He didn't know that his owner was dead.Ofcourse you'll know that he'll die de la...because he never eat never drink.After his death,the people buried him next to his owners tomb.And they made a statue of him right at the same spot where he wait for owner.The same posture,the same place...Does this explain why japanese love their dogs so much?hmm....

2009-08-30T13:59:00.005+08:00

昨天我真的觉得自己很可怜

虽然也不是真的很可怜啦~

我怎么在自相矛盾啊？

神经病！

算了~

反正昨天我真的神经病

晚上和xiuting聊完天后

正躺下床的那一杀哪

砰！的一声

头撞到了

很大声叻！！！

你知道吗

昨天电视还播恐怖片

我真怕我睡不醒(以下是自己的幻想)

明天被发现的时候

枕头上都是血迹

虽然和恐怖片没关系啦

可是，就是很可怕啊！（直到这里）

真的超痛的

今天早上起来还是很痛

生了一个包

我怎么这么笨拙啊？

=（

我是傻的吗？

2009-08-18T20:53:00.005+08:00

今天又和xiuting出去读书了

说真的~

我还真的没有动力了~！

不知道要怎么让自己重燃斗志怎么办？

2009-08-14T14:11:00.007+08:00

我又回来啦~

哈哈哈XD

最近真的很惨

其实也不是很惨啦~

只是嘴巴破皮

你们知道那种感觉吗？

就是很痛

讲话的时候又怪怪的

哈哈XD

我想我妈妈因该会蛮开心的

因为她说我讲话的时候会有很多动作

尤其是笑的时候

像疯婆子似的

所以现在不能哈哈大笑了

跟你们说哦~

伤口碰到醋的时候

真的是痛痛痛痛痛~啊

hahaXD old picture~

☆~[t][i][n][g][t][i][n][g]~☆

给未来的自己

玩笑

转贴：感谢小月月这样一个极品的朋友给我带来了这样一个悲情的国庆，深度八做留恋

抗体

比较

Actually I'm just envious and jealous of you

My fairytale

明知道我爱你

sick

mdm wong's shelter

something random

"ex-girlfriend'' phobia

Grant me my wish!

What a bug!

Spare a thought for me please!

自私/虚伪

强颜欢笑

远行

其实幸福很简单

why?why?why?

hurt so badly

unknown caller

Boring Chinese New Year :Warning!! might hurt your eyes

oh~ my pudding

SORRY! I'M BLUR!

Am I thinking too much?

Relationship is like a ride on roller coaster

sorry~I'll be a big girl

STM

The end of this year is the start of the next year...

childhood memory

random

mindset

WHY?WHY?WHY?

新的心情

Look back...

考试要到了

原来快乐那么简单

Those days in friendster

Christmas atmosphere in the air...

雨天

moody

09-11-2009

没什么

LAME

失落 失落 还是失落

RANDOM

sick

boring

失落失落还是失落